Hello. I'm in my mid-40's. I'm a nobody. I'm an outcast from outer space. I have no friends, no family, and I work from home doing phone tech support and customer service. My job sucks. I get yelled at by customers, disrespected, bullied, and belittled. It keeps me alive though, but barely. I'm not normal anymore because of it; so I won't pretend to be. What is normal anyway? I've been missing a lot of work lately because I can't seem to hack the stress. I'm going to be out of pot for awhile. If I can make myself keep working then possibly I'll be able to buy some pot again July 7th. I want to be able to grow my own weed so I don't have to pay for it. Prior to running out of money I was buying 2 ounces per month. This will be the first time in many years I've had to go without smoking. If I can keep myself working then by July 7th I can let myself buy some pot. Until then, it's simply not possible. The good news is that I know I will bounce back! I think I'll let this situation motivate me to keep me working. The other good news is I got two plants growing that I started from seeds beginning of May. I have a huge bag of seeds but they're old. It took me a month just to get these current two to sprout. The first one sprouted exactly on May 1st. and my second plan on May 7th. The older plant, I'm 99% sure is female. The other one, my prediction is male. It's just too early to tell plus I went ahead a few days ago I chopped them both down making 10 cuttings from the older plant and 1 cutting from the younger. All the cuttings seems to be doing well. I'm not see any signs of top growth yet, but also I'm not seeing them looking sick either. It'll be a few weeks until I can know for sure the sex. If the younger plant is male, then I am considering keeping it along with the cutting so that I can get a fresh batch of seeds. I totally understand the weed will be weakened but I really need to re-up my seed bank supply. On the country, I could just continue taking cuttings from the mother plant once a month. With these cuttings, I'm not looking to grow them big. As long as I can collect 10 cuttings per month, let them grow for one month and then flower for two; this should produce what I'm looking for each month. And right now, it's just a matter of being patient. My hope is that on July 7th that will be the last time I need to actually buy weed. I want to become completely self-sufficient and independent from having to buy. Anyway, truth be told, I'm a pretty nice guy. I'm not grumpy by nature. My job and life in general has me stressed all the time. Depression is always creeping up. So I'm constantly trying to push it back with a broom stick. I really hope to meet and make some friends here. Even though I put my name as MrGrumpy420, don't let that fool you. Behind the wall I built that protects me from bad people and customers is an enjoyable, humble, charismatic, and fairly knowledgable person. I decided to join here because I want to make new friends, improve my growing - and people skills lol - and possibly create a grow journal. Joining here is part of a new beginning I'm in the process of creating for myself. I'm looking for a new online place to call home and a place that is not Twitter or Facebook. haha! I'm an open book. You can ask me anything. I'm not somebody you need to worry about sugar coating things. I enjoy intellectual and respectful conversations and interactions. I look forward to meeting people and contributing anyway I can!
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You won't be alone here mate welcome! I ended up growing my own too, and not only does the grow process soothe me sometimes, but the better quality flower at way better prices (once you get your intial set up) makes it all worthwhile! Its almost time for work though, so I need to get ready, hope to see you around!
Hey everybody, thank you all so much! I got to say... it's been a long time since I've smiled. I just stopped back in and I have to say I never expected such a wonderful, awesome and warm welcome. Seriously all... thank you!
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Phone work is a challenge for the soul. When I was training with an outfit that sold storm windows (40 years ago) the guy running me through the process connected with a poor elderly lady rattling off his fast worded speel "Is Mr Hernandez available?" "No he died last week and we're burying him tomorrow" his soulless reply horrified me but still makes me laugh "Well before he died he'd agreed to have us replace his windows next Thursday, you will be at home?" Needless to say I didn't come back from my lunch break and finish training.
Oh man that is ruthless! But sadly funny at the same time. I don't know... for as much as I hate customers, maybe I should try sales. I currently do tech support so pretty much every call I take, I'm the one getting fucked. lol P.S. Very nice to meet you!
I can only imagine. My 88 year old mother has a unstoppable habit of calling the customer service line when she has trouble with her e-mail. This is a recurring scenario that I can usually rectify within minutes if she would call me first. Nine times out of ten it's something as silly as the batteries in her mouse need to be changed but she'll spend hours having them chase down ghosts while she angrily tells them she can't hear (refuses to put on her hearing aids). No matter that she's complaining about a program that wasn't part of the system (Thunderbird) they patiently try walking her through everything they can think of - even as far as reformatting and resetting her system.
Welcome aboard the ship! Are you planning on growing indoors or outdoors? Do you have a plan-b if the second plant is male as well?
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@MrGrumpy420 may want to look into endocannabinoid system while here , literally seeing random posts about the endocannabinoid system here and other places has led me to really fascinating discoveries and ah ha moments that enhance life and make it way more interesting ... kind of behind the scenes occurring all the time in the background and no one seems to know anything about it most times .... it is very complex but with time if it suits your desire can be learned etc... I'll leave a quick link with one research example .... Cannabimimetic phytochemicals in the diet- an evolutionary link to food selection and metabolic stress adaptation https://www.sativaisticated.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/01/Cannabimimetic-phytochemicals-in-the-diet-–an-evolutionary-link-to-food-selection-andmetabolic-stress-adaptation-Gertsch-Medical-Cannabis-Medical-Research-for-the-Endocannabinoid-System-ECS.pdf
Hello everyone. I hope everybody has been doing good! Hey Lawlerskates! Nice to meet you. I grow indoors. Also use only CFL's. Eventually I would love to upgrade to a nice LED system with tent. But I'm simple, broke, and it's weed. It's kinda hard to fuck up weed. CFL's are totally weak for flowering, but it gets the job done. If the plant was male I was thinking about keeping it to pollinate the other plant I suspected was female in order to get a fresh batch of seeds. I have a big bag of old seeds I've kept for many years and the germination success rate at this point is probably less than 10%. It took me a month just to get these two current plants to germinate. At this point I got the ball rolling enough with the current two plants. The younger one that I had suspected could be male ended up being a very fast growing, stretchy, sativa. It might even be auto flower, but not entirely sure. I topped it and used the top to make a clone that has rooted very well and is growing. Since I have a good copy of it I decided to move the mother to flowering a few days ago. And if it's auto-flower then it's going to do it itself anyway, including the fast-growing cutting. The other plant is also doing very well. It's a very compact indica. I haven't started to flower that one yet because it hasn't developed to that stage yet. Although it's still bigger, it's much more compact. I topped it twice and trained the plant into a pitch-fork design and have 8 good stalks (colas) that have started to get some height. I have about 5 successful cuttings from that plant. So I'm pretty much all stocked up for awhile although it probably wouldn't be a bad idea for me to keep seeds going to try to get a couple more new plants germinated. Right now it's just a waiting game. I could have let the sativa go longer but I'm chomping at the bits to get a harvest. And it's plenty big enough right now to flower it. What I get from that plant I'll simply make it last until the indica plant is ready next. From there I'm just planning on timing each round right with the keeping a controllable number of cuttings always growing and developing and always attempting to get more seeds germinated. By September I should be in a position to where I'm harvesting / curing a plant or two each month. As long as I can produce 2 ounces per month, that's more than plenty for me. I'd be happy just having 1 ounce. 1 gram per day is better than 0 grams per day. I totally can make 1 gram stretch. I can't afford to buy it anymore. I might be able to buy some weed July 7th. But until then, I have to wait. I'll tell you, being out of weed is an excellent motivator to grow your own; that's for sure! lol
Hang in there, tolerance breaks are great once you get through them. (That's what I call it when I'm too broke for weed) lol Sent from my SM-S124DL using Grasscity Forum mobile app
I appreciate that! I totally look at it that way too. lol Good news! Rent is paid, leaving me with $140 remaining. I got myself 4 grams and $100 cash to use for grocery and cigarettes. I'm totally set! All I have to do now is just keep on working. I missed a lot of work and I knew it would take a full month to rebound from it. I'm more than half-way out of this nightmare hole I dug myself in (all this because I missed work due to stress). And IDK... I feel like I truly learned my lesson. I don't think "my job stress" feels worse than being "broke and out of weed" ... so it seems like I'm able to remember that during peak-stressful moments at work each day lately. Honestly, I say to myself, "fuck it... I'm dealing with this because what feels worse... the stress from this customer that will be over in about 20 minutes... or 20+days eating Bar-S hotdogs and abruptly being out of pot? Because when I "work" and "do what I'm supposed to do" and "not call out early / late / some times the entire day" ... as long as I just do my job and put my exact 40 hours in ... I'm good to go with a solid budget that includes a 1oz per month allowance. IDK... I think long story short... I learned a lot about not letting other people have this type of power over me. Because at the end of the day the only person who loses in that situation is me. From this moment thru July 7th... I'm going to be just fine! I'm almost out of this hole and once out... I'll never let myself go back down there again.
My life feels like the Skittles TV commercial but instead of everything I touch turning into Skittles, everything turns into shit. And the slogan is different too. Instead of "taste the rainbow," it says, “Taste the shit”…. Why as much and as hard as I try, does everything in my life turn into shit? By nature is am sincerely a kind, caring, enjoyable person… life is just dragging me down so hard. I just don’t get it? I had everything with my budget perfect. I was knowing already this next week would be rough. But I was ready to drill down and get it done. I woke up today with a notification that my annual renter’s insurance payment processed. Which left my account with less funds to cover my rent payment I submitted. So I’m pretty much fucked now. I’ve never once been late on rent and at a few times I’ve even paid a month or two early just to have credit built up on the account. But now, because of some fucked up auto-pay setting on my renters insurance was turned on, they were able to process a payment which completely fucked me out of paying my rent. I’ll have to pay a fee to my bank when the transaction fails, and I’ll have to pay a late fee for being late on my rent; plus… I am not sure yet if the amount of time being late will void my contract. I am still trying to read what will happen to me in my contract agreement. It’s long.. like 8 pages. My mind is too fucked to even go back to work today. Man.... ugh
I guess the good news is that the plan I have in place still doesn't change. I got extra hours week one so as long as I go back tomorrow and stay there I'll still be on track with my budget with my next check. This situation with the stupid insurance is just random bad luck... more importantly my own lack of responsibility. It's my account, so I'm responsible to know if there was auto-renew that seems to have been turned on by default. Never the less, I guess it's my responsibility to have checked my account profile page to look for and deactivate said feature. To me, it's just that one last kick to my ribs when I'm already punished and down. The good news is that even with that last shot at me, as long as I chin up and keep sticking to my original plan, it most certainly will not fail and I'll be out of this damn hole.