Will I need to smoke weed forever?

Rayzon1 · Sep 1, 2011

I've lately been experiencing symptoms of depression. No, this is not "derpression" where you get all angsty and you think you have depression but you really don't, this is real depression.

I felt empty. My mind was completely blank, and my heart was without energy or vitality. I couldn't really do anything, I couldn't move, I couldn't go anywhere, and no one understood. I couldn't even fall asleep due to insomnia. So my life involved doing absolutely nothing. My parents didn't really understand what was wrong with me, if anything. They didn't understand the significance of depression. They didn't understand that I was in so much mental pain that I could hardly bear it. My heart felt so heavy in my chest to the point where I couldn't breathe, and I broke down in tears. I wanted death to take me right then and there but I couldn't bring myself to commit suicide.

I talked to my doctor and she put me on Prozac. I absolutely hate it, I fucking hate it. It makes me feel like a fucking zombie and it just worsens the symptoms that I described, especially a lack of vitality. I told her about this and she said she would wean me off before we tried another medication. When this whole depression thing started, I had been on a weed break primarily for financial and priority reasons. I wanted to focus on school and save a little bit of money here and there for college. On the first day of school, about a week ago from yesterday, my buddy asked me if I wanted to smoke with him. I hadn't done anything social at all since the depression started so I said sure, why not.

Let me describe how my outlook changed since the joint touched my lips. After my first hit, nothing really happened. It didn't really change me much. But after my second and third, the heaviness on my heart I described just vanished. I could think a little bit. I took about eight hits and gave him $5 to roll another. I smoked that all by myself after explaining the depression scenario and how I was immediately feeling better.

I could finally breathe! I felt like I was trapped in a casket underground, buried alive and panicking, and all of a sudden, the casket opened up to a burst of fresh air and bright blue skies. I felt so, so wonderfully good. But since then I haven't really smoked much and the depression is coming back. If my theory is right, that I will have to smoke again to feel better, does this mean I'll have to smoke forever or maybe until the depression goes away on its own, which I doubt it will?

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tl;dr: I had depression, smoked weed, it got better, stopped smoking, it got worse, will I have to keep smoking?
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Sounds like you have some issues with depression, my advice would be NEVER take the rx meds, they are 100x worse than mj. Weed can be a great therapeutic tool if you use it for the right reasons. Use weed to really meditate and look deeply into yourself, this will help you focus on the real reason keeping you depressed. Don't use weed to cover up problems, intstead use as a healing tool.

Jankasauras · Sep 1, 2011

Ralta said:

In my experience, if you get depression, weed seems to alleviate it. However, the comedown when you haven't got any hits you twice as hard...

It also makes me at least, sometimes feel rather apathetic towards things. And therefore, I end up procrastinating, not getting shit done, which leads to more bad feelings; and the vicious cycle goes on...

I don't know, just my thoughts on the matter.
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This is how I feel as well, it's a hard cycle to get out off

When you dig a hole too deep to get yourself out of *Sigh*

I feel depressed as well, trying to not make weed my solution, way too hard for my own good

momoG · Sep 1, 2011

makeitsleet said:

Do you have a hedgehog yourself, or is the one in your avatar a lie? In my extremely sound and valuable opinion I believe a hedgehog could be the answer to all of your problems.

but for real, it's a vicious cycle. I think it takes your body a few months of not smoking to balance your seratonin levels back to normal. That sucks man I hate feeling sad for no reason. But life ain't so bad, I find the sadness usually goes away after a good hard think about what I need to do to be happy. Do things that make you feel good about yourself. I think that's really the most important thing when it comes to dealing with depression and life in general
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you know whats crazy? i stopped for a t break and got really depressed (but i actually am depressed) and got a hedgehog as a pet. its kind of nice to feel like you always have someone there, even if its not a person. call me crazy but it made me feel better im not cured or anything, but it does help. and if it makes you feel better, keep smoking weed. im taking anti depressants right now (dont rip on me, its my choice and it works for me) and thats also working. DONT EVER MIX WEED AND ANTI DEPRESSANTS! it only makes it worse. i can not stress this enough. anyways, just do what makes you feel better. if that means toke everyday, go for it. im going to try to get off the anti depressants as soon as possible (even though they work, i dont like taking medication. its like controlled poison) and start blazing as soon as my break is over. natures medicine man. good luck

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