So a few months back my mom caught me (well, I had to tell her because she was going to drug test me to prove to the school that I wasn't doing heroin... long story) and she was sooo disappointed. I know she smoked when she was younger, she's even admitted it and said that I'd probably smoke but to just be safe about it. However, after she found out I promised her I wouldn't smoke any more because I could see how sad she was about it. I suck to that promise for about a month-and-a-half, but now I'm smoking every day again. For a while it was working out fine, I was just chillin in my room or with friends, gettin' high and lovin' life. Well anyway, for about a week now I've just felt soo guilty any time I smoke. Like, I just sit there or lie there and just want to burst into tears. If I'm with friends I'm fine until they leave me alone and I'm left to my thoughts, then I sink back into that feeling. It's gotten to the point that I just want to stop smoking so I don't have to deal with it any more. It's not pleasant. I'm trying to cut back, like just smoke after they go to bed and after I finish any stuff I have to do, but since I still live with her it just makes it that much harder. Has anyone else experienced this or something similar, or does anyone have any advice?