so i was a heavy smoker for a few years, i was like permabaked, blazin dawn till dusk everyday for the better part of 3 years.. i recently realized that it just wasn't that fun anymore, i had tried cutting back and shit but now ive decided im better off just quitting. anyways, i dont know if this is in the right forum, but my problem is this.. lately i've been feeling really apathetic about things.. i dont know why, im feeling better since i quit and things are finally looking up for me, i finally found a decent job that i dont hate, i just got a new girlfriend and i love her a lot but now i find that i just dont care about so much stuff. my place is a mess but i don't feel like cleaning it, ive been an asshole to people just for the sake of pissing them off, i spend money carelessly, i just dont know where im going with my life. mentally, i've noticed that my mind is never racing with thoughts anymore like it used to be. i've caught myself many times thinking about absolutely NOTHING. it's almost a struggle to find something to think about, this shit used to flow naturally through my mind and now i feel frustrated because i find myself drawing a blank, just not knowing what to say to people in certain situations not even caring what they have to say. i know i should say something but i can't think of anything to say. at home i spend most of my time sitting around playing drums or eating, i try to write like i used to but i cant think of a topic, i cant find a way to formulate real thoughts anymore, it feels like everything i say or think is just a regurgitation of some previous experience or memory. sorry if this is hard to read, it's so frustrating i can barely find a way to explain how i feel.