There's someone in my head, but it's not me

Brain Damage - pink floyd

on to a more serious matter, i smoked pot for about 3 years, usually a quarter a day sometimes a quarter a night (because i was too busy during the day) or more. and about a year ago, it felt like i blew a brain, (my philosphy was, you ony use 10% of your brain so why not burn the rest of it) and i kept smoking pot for about 4 months after that then i started to have trouble recogizing my friends who i seen all the time and my family and forgetting my own dog's name. i had even more trouble forming words and complete thoughts, i decided it was time to cut back. it's now been 7 months since i quit smoking weed and i stilll feel like a dunce, i use to be for the legalization movement by blowing people's minds who didn't smoke weed with messed up thoughts. i haven't felt sober for over a year now and i just want to feel sober. it feels like when you get really stoned and have trouble thinking or talking, permanently, my wang doesn't want to get up anymore because it doesn't get excited along with the rest of my body, i haven't laughed or cried for more than a year. i want to know if anybody has cured this side effect of pot smoking. like roger waters wrote about syd "there's someone in my head but it's not me" when i speak to people i often feel they are disconnected from me, somewhere above me, it's a strange feeling. i don't even enjoy getting stoned anymore becuase when i was stoned i would think differenly and now i can barely think at all. PLEASE PLEASE, someone else tell me a cure. ( i wasn't on any other drugs or anything, just a lot of pot)

 

i didn't come here to post anything anti weed, just want to know if this happened to anybody else, i'm not kidding, a quarter a day. got the stuff by the pound, 850 a lb, that quarter was smoked between me & 1 maybe 2 other people

 

i have been in a few drunk driving accidents but that was before i started to feel this way, but i can totally relate, i don't even feel apathy, or boredom. i suspect the damage is molecular though because i haven't bruised my head in those accidents or anything. i haven't felt bored, even when i have nothing to do, i sit and time just passes by. everyone else around me has been smokin pot for 15 or so years and they seem to be fine, i'm not real sure why it's happened or why it happened to me and not the other friends i was smokin that quarter with

 

some things that lead me to smoking too much pot was family problems, cousin tryin to get my g/f and stuff and him bein my boss at work too, another was no matter what a politician said he did the other thing and the system didn't matter to me anymore, my dad told me it was ok to smoke pot, i wanted to prove those anti pot commercials wrong and come out of it completely normal, what's 1 person out of 6 billion was another mentality.
since i've felt burnt i've learned how to play a guitar, and got enrolled in college, but learning is 100x more difficult than it use to be but i'm trying to keep my mind active and thinking about something, anything. i'm not going back to the drugs until i feel normal, drugs don't even sound fun anymore, which is a pity because i loved the taste of it and listening to pink floyd stoned. HAIL SYD BARRETT. if anybody has a time machine i want to shave off the last 2 years of my life and not get stoned as much (but still get high) maybeonce a week or twice a month.

 

not making any of this up, just wondering if anybody else out that had whatever this is. if so how long did it take to go away, if it does. i actually got my pot from the texas border (came from mexico, someone else smuggled it across for us) and was a big factory down there with all kinds of grades of weed and we'd pack it back up here to the midwest.

 

http://forum.grasscity.com/photopost/showphoto.php/photo/2699/cat/579

for the most part it looked like the buds on the scales in that picture. sometimes it was whiter and was always sticky to the touch. some of it was neon green lookin stuff (got you real high though). i haven't heard of anyone else that's done this and that is why i smoked so much bud at once, people have been smokin for 15, 30 years and they were perfectly fine in the head. i'm only 20 years old and can't carry on average (much less intelligent) conversations because when i'm speaking i'll lose my train of thought in the middle of speaking, or simply just not remember to reply. i hate being the stereotypical pot head, so i quit because i didnt want to be a bad name to the rest of yall.

 

i think it was cause i was still developing, every scientific study i look up on the net says weed cant cause brain damage, it can only change the way our brain cells are.
never had any problems paying attention prior to this, a doctor would just put me on riddalin and classify me in a folder. i don't feel hyper either, i feel tired all the time, my brain is kind of asleep, like it's stoned (the bad part of being stoned, forgetful part) i'm trying exercising but it's wearing thin too, have you ever gotten real stoned and felt stoned the whole day the next day?