'Man, I knew it would be hard, but never this hard.' How many times do you hear people say that? I know I have heard that phrase millions of times. And I never thought I would be saying it. Well shit, I have come to that myself. This tollerance break/quiting cig thing is rediculusly hard. I am bored out of my mind. Before if I was out of weed, I would chain smoke. If I was out of cigs, I would just smoke alot of weed, like I always do. But I would still have something to do. I enjoy smoking. Its a peacefull pastime to me. And I am talking about cigs and weed. It is just enjoyable to move the smoke around. To watch something go from whole to nothing in a matter of minutes. But now with none of that I sit here, with no school work to do (I finished it) and I am just bored. I am doing the same thing as this past weekend, but without the weed and boy is there a difference. Its funny, I think I am the only person who can honestly say I was not really addicted to cigs. I did enjoy how they made me feel, but I wasn't unhappy without them. But being without cigs AND weed is torture. I get bored easily. I have some ADHD that I stopped treatment on. So now everything is boring and depressing. Sitting here watching tv and chilling on the forums is just sooooooooo bland to me. I miss the depth of life weed gave me. And I know if I had one or the other right now I would be ok. But being without both sucks. I hope this passes in time, because I don't know if I have the will power. Sorry guys, I just need to vent and right now this is the only people/place that would understand.