You need to get up and get come out of the rut that you are in. Let me tell you about my problem. For the past 8 years my family and I have been treated like thieves and when I queried it the police referred me to mental health. I was taken away from my daughter for eight days. She was doing her 11plus at the time. You see you could still go out without being humiliated every time you go out. We get it even today so I am asking you please get up and get a job meet people and you will see the differences. We have no human rights but I still try to live.