smoke or not to smoke

Discussion in 'Philosophy' started by Buzzwell420, Aug 24, 2011.

  1. #1 Buzzwell420, Aug 24, 2011
    well see

    i havent smoke weed in over a year...

    if u count i have 11 months of total sobriety from any getting high...

    so my life is going well... and this is why i kinda wanna smoke.

    I have been listening to joe rogan, and the idea of expanding my mind has
    been on my mind.


    heres the dilema.... So i smoke and i have to lie about it.. i mean its not that big of a deal... but im on probation in a halfway house...
    and if i smoke once would it just send my life down the pipes...


    I question alot of things In My AA meetings... while still trying to be humble and not be better than anyone there or close my heart off to anyone in need..


    I think if i wait till my year and big whoop it is such a big deall.

    then people wont wonder why i didnt mention it...



    Idk I meanI dont need to get high i just want too.



    and i mean idk how the vibes will be if i have to lie about sober time... like
    i wont get my chip but ...



    decisons decision:cool:
     
  2. #2 aldkgh, Aug 24, 2011
    is getting high worth it?
     
  3. #3 Buzzwell420, Aug 24, 2011
    i mean worth what?



    like if i get stoned one time i have a feeling im not going to "lose it all"

    is the phenomena of craving going to over come me and i will go on a spree and do all sorts of drugs..

    i have this feeling it may not:cool:


    is there no fixing someone who sucked at life.

    i didnt get it..
    no dicipline no god....
    no goals..
    wanted to try every drug and got caught up in the rush of it all..


    is there no going back to moderation.
    am i doomed to a life of meetings for ever

    is that not an addiciton in itself>>


    i am just questioning instead of blindly following:cool:
     
  4. #4 shitloaf, Aug 24, 2011
    You, and only you know if it's worth it to you.

    also, are you getting piss tested?
     
  5. #5 Buzzwell420, Aug 24, 2011

    yeah once a month but one time.... no biggie...


    and yeah good point i was just seeing if anyone had experience or...

    i know if i ask the AA people I know what they will say...:cool:
     
  6. #6 shitloaf, Aug 24, 2011

    follow that feeling
     
  7. #7 shitloaf, Aug 24, 2011

    then I say do eeet. especially since it's not L or E or H :cool:
     
  8. #8 Buzzwell420, Aug 24, 2011


    yeah i mean

    i wanna do stuff that is going to benifit me....

    idk we shall see....


    any one else>
     
  9. #9 esseff, Aug 24, 2011
    I have no experience of where you are so this is just my point of view.

    If you're the kind of person for whom, like an alcoholic, one drink is too much, while 100 is not enough, and instead of just having a little weed it becomes a path back to where you were, then sobriety is probably the way to go. But only you know who you are and what you're like. You probably already know what you're going to do.
     
  10. #10 greenbrad420, Aug 24, 2011
    I would
     

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