First some backstory. Well my sister was killed April 2006 in a Jet Ski freak collision with her 3 best friends on a cruise in Malaysia at 20 years old. (her friends were ok though).Woman's dream trip turns to tragedy We have a garden in the backyard now with fruit trees, a little pond with a water fountain, a big stone with a poem engraved with her ashes buried under it. My brothers a carpenter and built a gazebo in it and it has creeper plants starting to grow up the sides to form a roof. Well the other week in winter there was suddenly a really nice day, and I just looked outside had this urge to go sit on old bench in the gazebo and smoke a joint. So I did. And it was just like one of the best hours of my recent memory, so many thoughts went through my head. Ones that I don't normally go near and all kinds of life and the universe and religion and the serenity and whats afterlife and so forth, all while just chillen on a bench in this pagola next to the fountain and stone and plants. Does anyone else just have these really deep and personal highs? Sure, I've had deep thought highs but they were just about all topics, but this was just so close to home and outbringing that it could have really changed my perceptions in day to day life. The herb is such a versatile amazing tool for life.