Is direct eye contact. I have always considered eye contact very intimate for some reason and I cannot make eye contact with just anyone. It makes me so uncomfortable that sometimes even still as an adult when someone looks me in the eyes I am almost pushed to tears. I am not necessarily a meek mild person but it's just something about the eyes-- the intensity. I can't even take a photo where my eyes are direction looking into the camera I feel like my soul is being revealed it's too much I'd rather not give it away. I am not sure how much sense this makes but is it completely irrational to fear eye contact/try to avoid it completely? Other people find me strange because when I am conversing I am too shy to engage in eye contact, I'll glance occasionally but I definitely don't stare into people's eyes :/ It's inconvenient and makes me feel awkward.