Title says it all. The past few days we've been fighting because I started smoking cigarettes again after I've kicked a nasty heroin habit. I told her I wasnt going to but I did and then proceeded to lie about it which ended up biting me in my own ass like it usually does. So we havent talked for a few days and she was basically about to break up with me but didnt. So I did some thinking and realized it was time to end it. Its hard tho because she was my first real love. We both lost our virginity to each other and always had a great time with eachother. I need to focus on my recovery and even tho I love her she was interferring with it from all the stress she put on me trying to control me and my actions. I am only human and have many flaws but so does she and I accepted hers. I called her tonite after work and told her that I think we needed to break up and she agreed. She actually said if I didnt do it she was gonna. Idk if im hurt by it or relieved that it ended on a good note and maybe one day in the future we can be friends again. I dont feel like crying. I actually feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. Idk how Im gonna feel tomorrow about it tho. Idk I just wanted to get it out and get some input on my favorite place on the internet.