First, I would like to say thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this and perhaps respond with a little advice for me. With that I'll get into the story and eventually how you can help me by imparting some wisdom. It all started out when I met this woman. We got along swell. Right away we liked each other and then started a relationship. This girl has two children ages 2 and 5, both boys. I got along well with them as our relationship blossomed. Their father was in their life for a couple months after this woman and the children's father broke up. He moved on and found another woman to parsue. They now live together and are going strong as far as I know. That's good and all for him but he hasn't visited his children since, not when they go the the hospital emergency or not. Not even for the oldest sons pre school graduation, or the two year olds birthday. We dated for eight months, coming to a spot in life where we are now choosing to go out separate ways. She said we could still be together and get married but not forever. She also said we could have a child because I've always wanted one but don't have any biological children of my own. As our relationship grew we moved together fairly quickly. Naturally being around her children helping her watch them, feed them, and spend time with them even just playing outside everyday they started calling me dad on their own. The mother felt strange about it when we both first noticed them calling me that and she corrected them right away each time. After awhile she stopped and we talked. She said she doesn't mind them calling me this but her sister and mother might. They are a big part of the children's life. She said it's how they feel and being the father never bothers to be a part of their life they have no father figure. The oldest acts out in school and used to get really sad his father wouldn't be here when he would get back from headstart. The youngest didn't really like his father because they never played together much. He used to think the youngest wasn't his so he distanced himself while favoring the oldest. So the youngest child grew a really strong bond with me and is always so happy to see me. After sometime the oldest stopped getting upset about his father not being there. He doesn't know it's because he doesn't want to see him, but rather that he simply moved. Now he calls me that when he feels like it and looks so happy, then wants to do something like watch TV and cuddle up next to me. He also used to have nightmares at night and wouldn't stop crying. Since I woke up a few times to comfort him they've subsided. When his mother would try it would take her awhile and he usually would call for his dad while crying. I told him alot of times when he called me dad at first that I'm not his father but I will always be there for you. No matter what you can always come to me if you need me, I'll always either be here or just a phone call away. He says okay but your still daddy. I feel bad for telling him this so much because the mother wanted me to make that clear with him. I also feel bad for him because I grew up with no father and he is having some troubles I experienced growing up. I still talk to the mother, she told me she didn't want to be with me forever on my birthday. I really was hoping for a nice day. I broke up with her because I figured what's the point to build your life with someone if it's not forever. She recently talked to me about having visits with them and spending the night. She said I could fill the role as their father if the children want me to. I don't know what to do. They call me dad so they probably do, but her family doesn't know we broke up. We both think they would find it weird but will talk to them if they ever bring it up. She also said she isn't going to parsue any other men and just wants to be alone. She also says not to hope we will ever have a chance of getting to be together. What would we even tell the kids when they're older? I still want to be a part of their life but I don't know how to handle feeling pain seeing her and them but not mattering to her anymore. I torn and can't decide. Do I either toss my own pain and feelings to be a considerate selfless human being to benefit two children to grow up with a father figure. Or do I just move on in hopes it'll bring less emotional pain and for self preservation like we as humans are supposed to do instinctively. Also this would affect any relationships I have in the future if they have an opinion about it. If I have children what should I tell them? So now that you have hopefully read everything I thank you again. What would you do? Why would you do choose to do that? What do you think I should do? I kind of want to still visit with them so they still have male adult attention. They get female adult attention but not to the level of talking and playing with them I do. They are watched but sometimes ignored in terms of meaningful attention. Like conversations about toys TV playing imaginary toys about their days and what's upsetting them lately. Well the youngest just babbles incoherent words with a lot of recognizable words here and there. Please give me some advice. I told her I'll think about it and I indeed have a lot to think about.