I'm pretty much unreliable. I'm broke and angry with myself. Overall not happy in general. This is a cycle. It leads to being suicidal atleast once or twice a month, regrouping and then the cycle repeats. Week after week. Month after month. I can't seem to catch my balance. I plan ahead and prioritize and try to make things better. I'll line up places to go look for jobs, make to-do lists, really try and budget and get my finances right. Ever since high school ended and the real world started it's been really confusing. I'm not trying to say i'm the only one. These are things we all experience. but what do some of yall do to pull yourself out of these ruts and garner some sort of motivation? i'm looking for any new idea.