I have smoked marijuana for the past 3 years. Before I ever smoked people told me that marijuana was an evil drug that causes people's lives to head in the wrong direction. At the age of 15 I was very suicidal and one day I decided to do something about it and ended up in the hospital for 4 days. About a half year after that I tried marijuana and came to the surprising discovery that it was a magical thing that took my depression away and made me start to enjoy life once again. Marijuana opened up my mind and made me realize that the world is a beautiful place and that life really is worth living. Now I am 19 years old and for some reason I feel guilty about smoking weed because sometimes it makes me lazy and my twin sister told me that I use marijuana as a "crutch", to be happy in life and therefore my happiness is not genuine. Should I listen to what people say and try to stop using marijuana at the risk of me being depressed and anxious, or should I just continue to smoke because it really does open my mind and make me happy? Please give me your input.