Every year, it seems like I get more and more apathetic and it's weird because I'm the only one I know who's like this. I'm also a loner because I just like beig alone most of the time, and when I am around people I'm skeptical of them, and so anxious that sometimes I can't even formulate responses or conversation. It sucks, but part of me is content with how I am, but j do get lonely when Im not at he movies, or hanging it with sometime just to talk and all that. Now, I think I'm a realist, not a pessimist. Bu my mom says I'm hard, and can be mean but I don't agree. I just think people always want to hear what they want to hear instead of the truth, and I don't bullshit with people. I tell em the truth. But I can be a huge asshole a lot of the time, especially today, when I ignored my BF calls and pretended not to notice them. There's more to the story, but idk...I just feel stuck. I've ignored friends, I've dropped them, Etc. I used to be nice to a certain extent until people took advantage of it and took my kindness for granted. Anyone else kind of hard, or have a tough exterior? I feel like I'm the only one out there!