Well, as hard as this is to type: fuck it, why not. I'm high, I don't care. All of this shit started in '09, and I got clean for 2 1/2 years, and I got back around this shit, again. So, where do I begin really? My drug of choice has never been canna, and probably never will be. The high I'm talking about is so much better, in every way. Sure, I've lost friends, and a lot of them from this shit, but goddamn: it's good. There isn't anything else that I've found that makes me feel this way. My job definitely adds to the stress & availability of the shit, although it's literally everywhere. I broke my left femur in 3x places in a wreck, so you know where it started. I've lost friends, family, you name it, all because of this drug, yet I can't seem to leave it alone. It's crazy that a derivative from a natural sap can really fucking get you in this situation. If I could post pictures of my drug of choice, or even say the name, I would. I'm sure y'all can figure this out. Surely I'm not the only one who has ever been in this situation, judge me if you'd like, but it really won't matter lol.