No offense to pot. But it has I think.. I cant really talk to anyone anymore really, unless I know them really well, I just feel like I dont belong or I dont fit in there and its really awkward, especially if I don't know the person at all. When I'm not high I feel like I'm disconnected from the world kind of, and my thoughts are slowed down a lot lately. Maybe it hasn't and I'm just thinking it has, but I can't stay focused on any one thing - my mind races from one topic to another during a conversation and suddenly I couldn't care less about what everyone is still discussing - because I have already moved on to thinking about something vaguely related in my head. The thing is, I'm really fucking smart, and I know I am, everybody has told me that for years, and I feel like it's slowly going away, or maybe I just feel like it is. Everything is so fucking awkward when I talk to people I don't know, my teachers besides one of them, and other people who talk to me who I don't know and shit like that, it is so awkward I use every opening I see to escape asap. I don't give a fuck what people think about me, but at the same time I do, I just don't want to look stupid or something either.. Maybe it's all in my mind and I should stop worrying. What do you guys think ? Also have been smoking every day for over two months lol. And it's because I'm always fucking bored around here, and if I'm holding it's impossible to not smoke, I'm good for a few hours but it happens, even with the power of Christ on my side.