Its been about a year since we broke up and I havent spoken with her since then. Its been a year since I said anything to her, and I am sure she would not want to talk to me at all after the way we broke up. I keep thinking about her, and I think about it whenever I am alone,and it been a year. I could be getting a ride and see a couple walk down the street or waiting at the bus stop and see a couple and a image just flashes across my eyes that reminds me of when I did that with her. At night when I sleep I have dreams and remb all the things we did, or whenever my friends are talking about their girlfriends and what they did over the weekend my mind always runs back to her. I've tried dating other women, but I havent had much success and I dont even smoke that much, so I know its not the drugs. I didnt even smoke that much when I first met her. In the last year I tried dating about three women but each of them either cancelled or it just fizzled out and I got the impression that they wheren't interested. I try to keep my moral up but this whole dating game really is starting to have an effect on me mentally. I feel like I need a new girl with me to make everything feel better all over agian. Otherwise I feel upset and I try to keep myself busy with my friends, but there all duesh bags. They never bother calling and they always make me feel like I am not important enough to be called or respected. I need to find new friends who respect me, but Im having a hard time making new friends who do more with their life than sit down and smoke weed all day or play video games. I really dont know what to do anymore. The only thing that will make me feel better is a new gf I care about and some new friends.