But after I pick up I feel better and I don't care about smoking it. Like I'll want to smoke but after I pick up and I actually have some bud I feel fine. I don't even give a fuck about smoking any cuz I know it's not going anywhere. Y'all get what I mean? Now I'm gonna pack this bowl for Simon the cat.
I used to be prescribed nerve medication years ago, and I'd hardly ever take it, but if I ran out I'd flip. Then I'd fill it, take one, and forget about em for a week, but it was like a mental thing, if I knew they were there I was fine, but I'd spaz the fuck out otherwise. Crazy shit.
But yeah I know what you mean OP. I'll feel so incomplete without any weed, and I feel like smoking so badly, but when I actually pick up I can just wait it out. It's easier knowing that you can smoke it anytime you want.
I definitely know that feeling, but I don't ever try to save it after I get it. It's more like I get a feeling of disappointment after I finish smoking the last bowl from my stash, knowing I have no more until the next time I can pick up, and also knowing I will have to spend more money.