In times like these, I seclude myself and listen to music for hours. I listen to whatever inspires me. It really helps. Also, turn your music up really loud and sing along a loud as you can.
Damn, I'm lonely, too. I've liked this girl for 4 years. When I met her she started going out with this guy, and dated him for 3 years. As soon as they break up I think I have a chance, but have to make it home from college to see her. One of my friends makes it home first and asks her out before I have a chance so now they're going out and I'm sad. I haven't gone out with any other girl and had feelings as strong as I have and have had for this girl for these last 4 years. I haven't gone out with anyone for a while and just need some loving now. Mebb you and I should get together, Hempress.
I also am sickeningly lonely. I've been a loner most of this year (my closest friends spontaneously abandoned me a while ago), but the loneliness is really getting to me lately. I only smoke by myself... although pot defintely helps, i feel like a loser. I'm in high school, so i guess i cant expect love and compassion all the time... but it still hurts. Oh... so ... sad.. WHINE
most people who say that have plenty enough friends, so they are annoyed by people complaining of having little. I've already tried to fit in to some group, but failed. fuck you.
I have been doing something about it....I've been taking my medication lately and everything....I can't do anymore to help it. It's mostly b/c I have a chemical imbalance....all I can do is take my medicine. I'm so sick of people saying to stop whining, or quit being so depressed....DON'T YOU THINK IF I COULD I WOULD??!! You think I like being miserable? Does it look fun to you?? Well, it's NOT fun! I'm NOT doing this for sympathy! Wanting to die is not a pleasant experience, and it's a lot harder to fix than just thinking positively. So I should do something?? Well, since obviously it must be really easy to feel better, please, let me in on your secret! You don't know either....stop making me feel worse.
fuck you too you actually couldnt be more wrong about me.. when i read your post, it was like i was reading the profile of a past me. i actaully typed up this huge post just fucking ranting about how much i could relate but i erased it, because im in the process of sorting out all my bullshit problems and finally getting out of the dark void of loserdom and into the life that everyone deserves to live. trust me, its the hardest thing ive ever done.. i envy people who have it together naturally.. they wont ever know what people like us have to go through just to get to where theyve always been. ..but nothing is going to change just because i want it to change. dont take it the wrong way
ive thought all these things.. but i resolved my depression by resolving the things that were making me depressed.. if its an actual chemical imbalance, then you cant do anything besides take your meds.. just remember that a lot of people have gotten over what doctors said were imbalances and turned their lives around without any drugs whatsoever
that doesnt neccessarily mean your depression is due to an imbalance.. but then, i guess youre the best judge of that. either way, take care of yourself.. theres some good vibes on the way
Hey Hempress, I'm worried about you! RU ok? hey, I read in another thread that you have heard from the Dingusus! So glad they are ok.
Man, I hear ya. When I was in high school, I had one real friend and then he got a girlfriend. You know what that meant. I played a lot of video games. Then during the very beginning of my senior year I got sick of my life how it was. I don't really remember how I made friends again, but I remember it wasn't easy because I was so shy. Don't give up. Be nice to people you want to be friends with. It's really hard to dislike someone who is always nice to you. But hey... HIGH SCHOOL SUCKS, especially small ones. just work hard so you can go to whatever college you want. Then leave your past life behind you. You can recreate yourself in college where no one remembers the time in 4th grade when you fell in the mud and it looked like you crapped your pants. good luck.
Yeah, phunky phil, i agree (sorry about lashing out). I avoid feeling sorry for myself, and I really try not to mope - i like doing something constructive with my time (like smoke dope). Thing is, the reason I feel depressed is I have no friends, but this is a hard situation to remedy. I used to have plenty of friends, but you know high school.. one minute you're in the cool group then you're an outcast. Kids are such bastards...alll i can do is wait till college. till then, loser i be (unless things change).
FIRST and foremost Hempress, I have come here *many* time for advice about things, when I didnt know where else to turn..and have gotten great responses and great help from a lot of the caring people here..this is a great place to vent out and talk about *anything that may be bothering yea..so dont feel sorry bout that..post on, we're all here for you! lol, and now, check your pm. love yea girl.
You know im not really an emotional guy most of the time but these forums can make you feel so damn comfortable about talking about this kinda shit but anyways. Im really stoned so yea if this doesnt make sense just ignore me, heh. Hempress sounded like she was really in a bad mood, everyone has their bad days, hard days at work, everyone seems to be getting on your case, noone likes you, noone wants to "be" with you as in a relationship. All this shit is stuff everyone on earth has. Noone runs by every single day having everything go right, hell it reminded me of this hbo thing on a porn studio guy, he was the most stressed out guy around, and he partly owned a porn studio, nice house, rich as fuck, but still, very down. I dont know what all of this is supposed to mean, but throw some thc in me and im deeper into thought than I thought I could even get. The universe, life, existance, religion, all this stuff swirls inside my head like a twisted void of confusion when stoned. Anyways this is turning into a novel or some shit but hempress, relax, if you can, trust me when I say I know how you feel, in the end, it will not even matter, just enjoy life as much as possible, keep smokin the herb, and itll eventually "click".