Idk if it's this strain in particular or the music I'm currently listening to but whatever it is, it has allowed me to see my entire life in 3rd person and remember things I haven't thought of in years. I can remember exactly when my anxiety issues started and when my life started a downward spiral. I'm not trying to be a pity party here its just that I have just realized that my existence up to this point has been pathetic. The question is that now that I acknowledge how fucked it has been, will I take charge and change it? Only time will tell I guess. I literally just typed 4 paragraphs the same size and deleted it all twice. Just been ranting. Felt good to get it out though. I'm not sure what I'm expecting out of this thread to be honest. I'm so high.