At the moment I'm feeling very frustrated and almost sad at the way humans operate with one another, and how they evaluate themselves. I'd consider myself an extremely pleasant and supportive person. I have anger, of course I do, but I never let it come out. My demeanor is always warm and friendly. Unlike my siblings, who are downright rude and emotionless, I never once raise my voice to my parents. I'm not caught up in the materialism of the 21st century nor do I try to be something I'm not. I display the "Everyone is one" concept through my personality. I want others to be extremely happy about life. Overall, I'm trying to say that I'm a pretty decent person. I live by these morals and I'm proud. MOST people do not live by these, rather the complete opposite. Just half an hour ago, I came home to find my mom angry at me. She had searched my room extensively and managed to find one of my homemade pieces. She yelled at me for a minute, and her expression was so vile that I basically tuned out. I couldn't hear a thing she was saying. While most teens my age would argue with great hostility, I stood there taking it all, trying to be logical about the situation. All that was going through my head was "Why do I deserve this?" I'm not talking about merely "getting busted" by your parents (besides, I'm 18, going to college soon). I'm talking about a total dehumanization. Finding something related to marijuana caused my mom to place me on a lower plane than what I truly am. This is sort of a rant but I am just so puzzled. I'm sure she said "You are nothing but a lier". NOTHING? I know I have a kind heart...what about those who don't? The men in business suits who take high blood pressure medication while eating their sodium-rich chinese food at a meeting on how to increase million-dollar salaries are the low ones in life. Sure, they have a great house and a family, too. Their morals, however, are pure SHIT. They make others feel like pure SHIT. But let's say my mom had come home and found me in one of those suits at a business meeting just like that. Then, it seems she'd be proud. Us good people can never win. The uncommon values of the good-hearted are easily shrugged off once a present-day "crisis" comes around. When I come tardy to a class, I'm looked upon as a criminal, even though I make each person in that class laugh & gain new perspective on life through my words. It just all makes no sense to me...John Smith, football player, at the front of the class is labeled a 'good kid' even while he subconsciously bullies 3 people per day and swears to his parents..but he comes to class on time each day. What a sweetheart. The modern day world works for noone unless they can ooze out some egotistical traits and some greed...heck, maybe a dash of unkindness!