thanks guys :/ i think this is for real though. because neither of us are the type of person to rush into anything like this. we've had rough patches before but we worked them out. this one doesn't look like it's gonna end that way :/ i let you know if i'm still alive by tomorrow. i've kind of gone into super self destruct mode. might snort some more doxi since my weed ran out.
Well, you will start caring again... probably not that long from now. Breakups suck.... but its not the end of the world. Don't do something you will regret when you get over it......
Quit it. You lived without her in the beginning and you can again. I had to break up with my fiance at the time and it was the hardest thing I have ever been through, but I got through it. You'll get through this. Just go to bed and you'll feel a little better tomorrow. If you self destruct you're just reminding yourself of the pain tomorrow.
you can stop caring about her you can stop caring about the world, but dont stop caring about yourself cause in reality your all you've got. I'm sure you'll get through this. i know that was super cheesy but its true.
thanks you guys. this means a lot, because pretty much all my friends are asleep. i was already going through a pretty tough time, this is just exacerbating the situation. i've been having a lot of trouble with flashbacks and stuff lately, and my.... i guess she's my ex girlfriend now.... well, she was pretty much my only support. i have an appointment with my psychiatrist on thursday to adjust my meds though, so maybe that will help.... as if their stupid medicines actually work. well, hopefully it will help some.
It'll help, and by Thursday you'll be feeling a little bit better. It took me a long time to get over my ex, but I was able to stop being overwhelmed by it before long. You will too. You will get through this, I know it feels like nothing in the world hurts more, but you'll survive.
that's interesting. i wonder if i've ever felt something worse than this? i may have. i guess that means i can survive. those other things severely fucked me up though.
Look, I know how you feel, completely. Trust me, I've been where you've been and I've had a rough life up until now. The things I've been through are no laughing matter, as I am sure the things you've been through have been as well. You're going to get through, just remember how strong you actually are and that you'll be fine. Because you will be.
What doesn't kill you indeed makes you stonger. When you get through this you will know that you can deal with this typ of pain, and you will be a better person for it. I just got out of a 3 year relationship a few months ago and it was killer for a while.... and now I'm basically back to baseline, but stornger, wiser, and better prepared for having dealt with it. And I learned that all women are totally fucking blood-nuts crazy. Present company included.
thanks. :] i actually feel a little bit better now. i stopped thinking about it. i think my brain is going into self defense mode lol. so i should be fine until i break down again thank you a lot though.
the most beautiful girl in the world, who i will never hold again. this was taken a year ago, but i still love this picture. i'm on the right, she's on the left. i was seventeen and she was sixteen :/ jesus, i'm such a naive teenager xP
That's a really awesome picture. Not feeling any better today? Stop looking at the old pictures, put them away, RIGHT NOW. Put away anything she gave you, ect until you are strong enough to face it, because before then, it only brings you down.
how am i supposed to get a tattoo off my hand? lol... ah, fuck everything. i'm going to fuck everything up with this. i have portfolio reviews at school tomorrow and i still have to do two paintings, two drawings, i have to photograph my sculptures, and i have to gather all my work. i am going to get my ass handed to me on a plate. with fried chicken and anchovies. this was horrible timing xP at least i hadn't started spending money on valentines day...
may i recommend going out and getting your snizz pounded.......thatll cheer you up. JK...seriously sorry for even posting...
You have a lot to get done right now, focus on that and try to forget your pain. The more you think about it, the more miserable you make yourself. Just live your life and you'll stop feeling sorry for yourself. You are very young, and don't know what the future holds, stop dwelling and go onward. I know it's easier said than done, but I've been down this road before, take a deteour before you mess up your education (as you mentioned above).
haha i am being a whiny little bitch, it's true.... ah, why am i so unstable? i need to get my ass in gear.... easier said than done of course.
You have a reason to be unstable, that's the thing. But YOU have to get yourself over this, by dwelling on it, you aren't doing yourself a single favor.