tl;dr at bottom... So I broke up with my ex in September after almost 2 years on and off. She broke up with me over my lack of trust (she cheated a year ago) but wanted me back a few days later. I said no because being single gave me a chance to figure my life out. After a month I realized I didn't want a girlfriend at all. I was content with being alone and only worrying about myself. I met this one girl I started to talk to, but that didn't get far. Anyway throughout this period between September and now I haven't lost contact with my ex. I didn't want her or think about her or have any emotion towards her, but I told her anything can happen in the future. Just cause I dont want a relationship now doesn't mean I wont want one later on. I told her I would be there for her, but I needed space. After taking some unmentionables Friday (rhymes with brooms) I had a huge shift in thinking. I realized how shitty existence is and how depressing this life were taught to live is, but I was happy. I realized how important it is to be as happy as I can be. I realized that no one in this world makes me as happy as she does. Even though our relationship got rocky, she was still the greatest thing in my life. I told her I had figured everything out and I was ready for a relationship. I was ready to start from scratch and make it right. Unfortunately, although she said she loves me more than anything and will always be there for me, she couldn't wait. She met someone new and although they aren't dating, she said if he asks her out, she won't say no, but at the same time, she knows how much she loves me and wants to make it work, she just hates me for making her wait even though I was doing it to protect myself and us. Also the fact she is "picking" me or this guy really makes me question if she truly loves me like she once did. The only response I could think of was that I'm willing to wait while she figures out what she does. I'll be heartbroken if she goes out with him, but it's my fault if that happens. My problem is I hate thinking about her all the time. I didn't at all before I had unmentionables, but now I can't stop. I'm not the kinda guy that likes to go to parties and get dome from random chicks. I wanna meet a girl I can call my own. I like all that cheesy shit... but I love sex even more lol it just has to be with a girl I have feelings for for it to feel right. What should I do blades? Should I wait for what I think will be the relationship I dream of, or should I just be single and try to start over. tl;dr I broke up with my ex months ago, stopped having strong emotions for her so I could figure out what I wanted (not just in a relationship but life in general), took unmentionables, all my emotions for her returned and I want her back, she is talking to another guy and said she doesn't know where this will go. Should I wait for her to decide if she wants me or him or just move on and be single.