Pardon if there's some rambling here but I need to know if anyone else feels this way. So I've been diagnosed with Bipolar Depression and a severe anxiety disorder since I was younger. That may be a key factor. But I've always strongly disliked almost everything about the world we live in. A lot of people say that people with depression and anxiety disorders have a heightened sense of empathy. I believe that's true, and may be part of this. But my view on the world has always made me a very angry person. Not until probably a few years ago did I figure out why. Much more so in the past year. Our entire existence is built on the existence of corporations and the rich and greed and what they see fit. We parade around exclaiming how "free" we are, but are practical slaves to a made up concept. We don't look out for each other. Most people are selfish pigs these days. And I mean most. Hell, when I have the extra money I buy shit I don't need. When I could be thinking about people that don't have shit. Don't get me wrong I give food to the homeless and do some good when the chance arises. But to an extent, Everyone is guilty of it. Why? I get we're not perfect. But I'm mainly placing more of the blame on the well off who do nothing. There's another thing. Homeless people. How in the hell can we call ourselves humane or kind hearted when there are millions of homeless people throughout this country alone that have absolutely nothing. Maybe that's there fault but who are we to condemn them? Some people have houses five times to big for there family. Firstly it's an unethical use of space and vulgar display of wealth. Secondly, some of these people could literally afford to feed a city. Hell I'd bet there are celbrities that could do even more so. Society was built in the entirely wrong direction. Also, Today, if you walk up to someone and just talk to them, about just anything, chances are 90% of those people are either going to feel uncomfortable with the interaction or completely ignore you. When did it become strange to talk to each other? Why are we so distanced from each other? Yet everyone can get online and suddenly be this talkative Nancy. We've got corrupt justice systems. Charities that you know damn well are keeping most of the money (whether they say so or not), a government that would see us die before genuinely wanting to help with anything at all, (i.e. Cure for cancer.) you know damn well that shit exists. We've got a quarter or more of the young population growing up to be fucking hoodlums that are conditioned by media to think being some kind of wanna be thug is what's up. We've got a drug addicted country dropping like flies to this man made shit. the "War on Drugs"? How about the largest ruse in history. Overdose rates are rising and 80% of drug bust news I see is for marijuana. Do you think that's the work of a gov that wants to keep you alive? Look, my main point, is that in almost every aspect of life, you can see deceit, selfishness, pain, and dwindling hope. We are for sure past the point of no return and lately I really have felt like just cutting it short. The Big Bang. Out like a light. If it weren't for my son on the way, I don't think I'd be here today. I'm simply not happy. It's very hard to be when everywhere I look I'm reminded of how much I hate my surroundings. I don't need pity I just need to know if anyone else feels like this on a regular basis. And if so how have you dealt with it? Do i walk around like a dwindling piece of meat until I eventually go mad or have no feelings? Hope someone actually reads through this shit. My brain is everywhere today I'm sorry if it seemed jumpy or just not on track.