Every single day I wake up with a burning in my stomach and depression sitting on my soul. Some days it's so bad, that I feel like I'm choking. I've tried everything and only marijuana helps. My therapist is all for it, but wants to teach me additional coping mechanisms. I can't stay home alone without depression or anxiety taking over. I can't walk into town by myself. It's just a train wreck. I just wish someone understood what it's like to go through a life-altering event like falling down 15 ft, head first into a concrete basement. There isn't a day that I don't think about my injury. For now, there's not much I can do. We are trying to move to a place where I have more services. I'm just stuck in limbo right now. Ugh.
Depression is hard to understand until you go through it. What's worse is that it manifests itself differently in each person. Unfortunately there's no magic bullet to cure depression. We can treat the symptoms. But it doesn't fix the problem. The passage of time can help lessen the depth of the depression. But the trigger will never go away. It's just the acuteness of how we react to it that gets tempered over time.
You get depressed when are alone and when you are around people? I get depressed when I get arrested. Think about people in Syrian refugee camps waiting thier turn to seek asylum into the USA. Now Trump just gave a big fuck you to those refugees. Thats one of a million examples. Be greatful and happy you are blessed enough with a joint and GC forums on the internet. Count yor blessings.
That's a good way to put it. Maybe things won't be so bad after all. Well, except for the Trump piece
My therapist told me to write down one thing I am greatful for on a piece of paper and fold it up and put it in a jar. Do this everyday for a year. Then at the end of the year, I will have 365 reasons to be greatful instead of depressed.I started mine on Thanksgiving. The jar is getting full already. Good luck!
Have you spoken to somebody about your psychological trauma from your injury? About 10 years ago I had a horrific leg injury, taught me that there are dimensions to pain i'd never experienced. But it took me longer to recover mentally than physically from that. I would think about my accident everyday, and sometimes wake up thinking my leg was injured again and not want to move it, things like that. Maybe ask your therapist about working on some of the related psych trauma? I know I had to ask for those services but they really helped me.
I have seen the nation's top Neuropsychiatrist for my brain injury. He works at 2 universities, Craig Hospital, Learning Service Brain Care Specialists, and has a private practice. He was the one who recommended Learning Services to me. It was an absolute vacation. I had physical therapy, occupational, vocational, etc, etc. My meds were heavily monitored and I was part of a study. I stayed at the institution for 2 months. The Neuropsychiatrist's name is Randall Buzan.
Whoa, just checked out Buzan, sounds like you couldn't be in better hands medically. Hang in there man
I would love to do that. Maybe I'll talk to my therapist about doing that. I have my therapist appointment in 30 minutes. Thankfully our neighborhood has a clinic, so I can walk to my appointments. They even have a pharmacy so you don't have to go into town to pick up meds.
He's quite the man. Instead of testing reflexes with a tool, he uses his iPhone. Whenever you tell him a bit of information, he'll reply with "That was delicious info. Tell me more." He is one funny guy.
Check out Dr. Buzan's video on the Learning Service's website. He is a fucking genius. Q & A with Dr. Randy Buzan - Learning Services
I don't know if this will help you or if you do it or not or how it makes you feel but when i help others it makes me feel good. especially when it's a stranger. depression does hurt but it makes the sweetness even sweeter stay good bro.