idk where to really start. Okay so lately ive been feeling really depressed. every time i look in a mirror i feel like shit, i literally get frustrated because i have my face. I have acne all over my forehead and black heads all over my nose. ive been trying all sorts of acne medications and none of them have compleely gotten rid of my acne. i just want to rip the skin on my face of and die...literally. My teeth....i have a gap and purple gums but the dentist says the purple in my gums is caused by my natural pigmentation (because im black) and can easily be removed. But i dont have the money for braces or that treatment. i feel like i just want to kill myself, all the girls i try to talk to pretty much think im ugly and this one girl when i got her number she was just starring at my face with a look of disgust on hers. I wonder why everyday..why god made me this way i did nothing to deserve this. i just feel like ive been cheated out of a happy life. Ive been feeling this way since the 8th grade and im a freshman in college now. always watching other dudes flirting with girls and getting out there but when i try they just either ignored me or just said youre just a friend , implying me to stop flirting. i fucking hate my life, literally. i lay awake every night for at least two hours thinking about suicide and how much my life sucks. and i know i should be positive...but thats bullshit. No one will ever know i feel when i look in the mirror everyday, and just being disgusted with what i see. I feel like garbage. idk how much longer i can take this, ive really been considering suicide for awhile now and i feel likt i might just do it, i mean its not like im gonna be missing out on anything by being dead.