I just wanted to make this thread to bitch about failing classes. fuck i've been so apathetic about everything lately. for my final project in one of my classes I am supposed to design a website, also due is a video project. both these things are due thursday. I've honestly gotten to the point where I would rather fail than try and rush and do both of these things. I doubt I could finish if I wanted too. I should have been working on this shit so long ago, but everyday it is like I can't force myself to do fucking anything productive. I don't know if I am depressed, have ADD, or am just lazy. I did alright in all my other classes, not great but alright. I can just hear my parents now when they find out I fail. I'm a fucking disappointment to them. My mom will probably just assume I'm going to fail out of college entirely after this. Then the news will spread to my brother, my aunt, my grandpa. All of these people can treat me like a worthless idiot. Failure is not acceptable in my family, and it makes me feel like an outcast among them when I don't do well in school. I know this shit is easy. I'm not stupid, I am smart. I always do well on tests, and things that I put a lot of effort into. But too much of the time I just don't try. Its like I can not force myself to do work. Gah. I need time to think. I don't know what to do with my life. I cannot see myself in any career. Should I drop out and go to culinary school? I'm even considering the army. Or stay here at university another year, go to a psychiatrist try to get on some antidepressants or adderall, I think that could help. Fuck I just feel like shit right now.