i'm the last person anyone would expect to enlist... a longhaired hippy, really. ok, a medium-lengthed haired hippy. i wonder what i'd even look like with short hair? or a buzz? holy cow! ... regardless. i don't know what suddenly compelled me to consider the army, but i was always strongly against it, and now suddenly, it seems like a good option for some reason. I come from a family where nobody was ever in the forces, except for my grandfather who had no choice. In a twist of my mothers words, i was raised and given opportunities so i didn't have to join the forces. i got straight a's in a good high school, and now i'm at a good university... and i hate every waking moment of it. i slack off, i'm getting bad grades for the first time in my life, and in general, i feel unmotivated and lost. i dropped out of journalism after being told i had little to no hope in the field, and i regret that more and more each day. now i'm stuck wondering if i should join the army. the only part that scares me is i can't get a straight answer on what it's going to be like. nobody seems able to tell me. sure, its going to be hard to tell my mother if i decide, but that isn't my major concern. i also don't care if i'm deployed, that doesn't scare me. i'd actually rather be thrown into battle and report that, but thats neither here nor there right now. the point is, the army seems like a more viable option the more i think about it, despite being in school. i'm currently skipping class, writing this on campus in a dunkin donuts, thinking about how much i despise class. university gives you that option... to despise class, and not go. i almost feel like i need a militant atmosphere, even though thats the opposite of what i always thought or wanted. i'm not sure how bad basic training is, etc, but i dont think itd be too much for me. i'm a small dude, but im in shape. any input here? i've been at a crossroads in my life too many times, and it seems like each time i make the wrong decision... i can't do that here.