I had a bit of an argument with my mom on the phone. She wasnt there for me for a period of time when I was younger, and it sort of fucked up my childhood. I told her "you really dont care do you" it slipped out of my mouth, now i feel really bad. I fucked up. I dont know why I said it, its like all the frustration from the past overwhelmed me for a brief moment. She was depressed as it is, and isnt in the best health, but when she gave me this attitude during the conversation, it just slipped out. how can i apologize to her? me and my fuckin mouth.....god damnit. Cant go through all this shit and not do something now.