Hello, dunno where to post this, but there's some cool people in the box so I guess this is appropriate (mods, feel free to move this to the correct area if I am mistaken). I think I'm depressed and/or socially anxious. I'll sometimes feel like absolute shit, with the most negative thoughts hitting me all at once. I think about my future, "Why can't I find a girlfriend?", "My friends all hate me", shit like that. I'll come up with reasons in my head why all of that stuff is true, even though I know it's not. I'll have just weeks at a time when I feel down. And then I'll get over it for a month or two, but something always triggers it and it comes back. I'm also super nervous around people. Even my very best friends, who I hang out with every weekend. I know they wouldn't judge me for some shit like this, but I'm always afraid to bring it up and just spill my guts out and talk about it, which I know would make me feel better. And when we all hang out, I feel extremely self concious, like they're all secretly laughing at me when my back is turned (this happens all the time at school and other places too). And I know that they're not, they're all good people who don't judge, but I always convince myself they are. What the fuck is wrong with me? How do I get over it?