I feel so alone. Not the type of alone like "o no I don't have anyone", it's the type of alone that no one will even look you in the eyes anymore. You think I'm kidding? I'm not. I haven't made eye contact with anyone for longer than 5 seconds in months. What do I really know about anyone? What do they really know about me. The answer to both is next to nothing, and that's really fucking depressing.
So now we're back to the confusing thread title. I want someone to just get in my face and ask me what the fuck is wrong with me. To really pry and dig at me. I want someone to be so blatantly rude to me for once that I know they actually care, but I don't see that happening. I'm not an emo I'm not a cutter. there were times when I was happy doing anything.
But now what do I have? Just my own stupid head that's driven everyone away. That's it, there's gonna be a point someday when you realize that's all you really have too. That's all you came into this world with and that's all your going out with.