Consider your external reality, including circumstances, people, everything, to be a perfect reflection of your consciousness, down to the deepest levels of your subconscious. The totality of your state of being, or consciousness, could be likened to a bubble. It is self-generating, and impenetrable by outside forces. Never feel like a victim, because there is nothing that can occur without your having created it, or allowed it to happen. There is a major difference between your conscious identity and your subconscious self/total consciousness/external reality, though(Note that I am using the three terms fairly interchangeably). Your conscious identity has many filters. Thoughts and ideas that you have that you don't want, or don't think you should have, you repress. You try to pretend they don't exist, or call them bad, or tell yourself that you don't really think that. Your subconscious, that which manifests as your external reality, has no such filters. You could say it is ruthless, although it is simply unfiltered, with no bias towards positivity or negativity, or anything for that matter. The other thing about subconscious/external reality is that it does not cater to your notions of self. It is completely impersonal.It is all your consciousness interacting with itself.