Pretty long..but I feel like I'm going crazy. Ish.. So like. I've been really spacey recently. Like, i'll try to say something...but it completely comes out differently than how I intended. Idk what it is. I painted my room yesterday then slept in it that night- could it be that? I doubt it. Anyways, something crazy happened to me. I'm really scared of running over railroad tracks and having the little blocker come down (the thing attached to the light and dinging alarm sound that tells you not to go cuz a train's coming) and trapping me on the tracks. I think "it's cool. they prolly put the warning down far far before the train even comes close. Anyways, I pass the railroad tracks today. Stop at the stop sign immediately after the tracks, look to see if a car's coming, and see three huge lights of an oncoming train. Right after I noticed it, the light started going off and the gate came down. I was like, a few seconds a way of possibly being trapped inside. It scares me because that's a big possibility. that made me start questioning my spirituality. I'm agnostic, but when I thought back of my "near-near-death experience (sorta)" I can't help but think someone's looking after me--- maybe? I could help but freak out- a little (I was surprisingly calm) Kay! Second event.. Picture driving down an empty road. Houses and roads all around, fully equipped with trees. It's like, 45 mph and there's barely anyone on the road (about 10:50). Sky's clear as anything- nothing but the remnants of a full moon and a few scattered stars...not a cloud in sight. Suddenly, a burst of snow falls onto your windshield. It's about 60 degrees outside, so all of this sounds insanely impossibile. At first I think maybe there's a fire and it was ashes- no smoke. Maybe someone threw some coke out their window or something cuz they were afraid they were being tailed- passed the last car a minute before (just one car. no cop following)...nothing could have lingered that long after about 40 mph speed. Then I think I'm getting abducted- no time change, nothing different. What's going on with me? Can paint fumes really fuck you up that much? I dont know what to do. Hopefully this passes before school tomorrow so i can be "bright eyed and bushy tailed" for classes- i'm just calmly freaked out a bit.
I dont know about paint fumes but my guess is yea they can do some damage so its a possibility But how would you get stuck? theres just enough room for a car inside those guards but if your driving then your moving and you should go through the other side. Atleast the guards around here dont go down extremely fast. No one gets trapped in those things except for the people who stop on them and well thats their own fault
paint fumes dont really effect you much, unless its oil based paint, but that shits a bitch to paint walls with so u probably used latex one time i drove my car across the rail road tracks without looking (no blockers, its a road that leads to offroad down to a river) and i went across the track n right when i was on the track i heard a whistle n i almost got hit by a train by about a foot or 2 on my back end, i had my windows up n my system bumpin so i didnt hear it n it didnt blow its whistle comin through, haha man, that was a fuckin rush to almost get demolished by a train, i've also raced a train on my street bike n went through the closing gates as they were closing, it was pretty fun
I didn't really think it's paintfumes. I had a really tiring weekend- maybe that's it. Alot of strenuouse cleaning, painting, sneezing, vacuuming, rearranging, and organizing. And I'm still not finished. Maybe I'm mentally exhausted but physically okay. Idk. Hopefully tomorrow will be a little better. But I haven't questioned my spirituality in years. And I'm afraid of train tracks regardless--idk why. And the snow thing still creeps me out.
I've seen people fuck up and barrel right through those blocker things for trains before. Where I live anyway I think they're made of wood and designed to break relatively easily instead of say like.. bending and scraping along side of the train. That seems like it would be more hazardous than a broken hunk of wood on the ground. That's just my stab though, I'm no expert on these things.
You sound like someone with a powerful and amazing imagination. I could be completely wrong here but I bet you're a very creative person, right? If not, sorry. Stay green.
you are freakin out, man. sorry pink. i dont know what to say to make you feel better. "want me to drag my sack across your face?" - glenn quagmire.