You two summed it up. First thought is my ex fucking me over usually followed by the word "Fuck". Then i try and go back to sleep before i realize i have no bud. Once that anger sets in i just get up and start my shitty day lol.
I try to recap my dreams I had during the night in the 5-10 min. i wake up in the morning... then i smoke a cig, take a shit, grab a cup of coffee, and im good to go.
Well I can almost never sleep so when I wake up I just think of how miserable and tired I will feel all day But then I smoke a bowl and have a cup of coffee and all that goes away
if I have weed to smoke later that day, I remind myself of that, smile, get up, shower, and think about utterly random shit while I eat and drive to class if I don't have weed to smoke later that day, I'm borderline heartbroken by the combination of the fucking alarm and that thought, I get up shower, and think about how I'm going to get some weed while I eat and drive to class
Lucky bastard you live in Van, I live in Abby . I just moved here from a small town in the Lower Mainland, but yeah I usually visit Vancity as much as I can, especially for the vapo lounges.
If I had a dream, I just think about how I wish I could get back in it. And at how awesome that reality was compared to the physical reality I woke up to. (I hope when you die you get transported to a alternate existence where you eternally dream. Your conscience will create matter and a "existence" in this realm, like a dream.) Regardless if I have a dream or not, I always have some morbid thoughts in the morning, like a aneurysm exploding, or having a heart attack. And then having the daily revelation that I will die and everyone I know will die. I also normally think about sex, drugs, and food. Then I normally get nostalgic, then once I realize that Ill never get the past back, I get depressed. Then I go about my day, and I have several distractions that make thoughts like this not bother me.