Ok this is a story about if I should start smoking again or not so letting you know now. So I've stopped smoking for a little over 4 months now to better my life cause I had been smoking since I was 18 but I didn't heavily smoke until about 20 or 21 years old and now I'm 25. I felt that weed had gotten the better of me and everyday I would just smoke and that's it. I work part time as a caretaker and I've been working there since I was 18, so 7 years I've been working there and so far I only gotten a raise of 44 cents and make 12.44 an hour. I work 30 something hours in 2 weeks. I stopped going to college for a while, probably like 2 or almost 3 years ago because I was always high and never took my studies seriously and now I really regret it cause I see all my friends graduating or already graduated. The main reason why I wanted to stop smoking was because I wanted to look for a new job but after 4 months of looking, I only had one interview and that's it. I've been applying to different places about once every 2 or so weeks and I get nothing back. I want to go back to college but honestly I don't know what career I want to get into. I was studying for business admin. but now that I think about it, I don't know if I can be stuck in an office everyday for hours doing work. And to be honest, nothing really interests me at all and I feel like I'm wasting my life away and doing nothing with my life. My mom and dad thinks I'm still going to school and keeps asking me when I am going to transfer cause I'm suppose to be in a community college and I always tell them soon but really it's a lie and I'm not even going anymore. Everyday I just go to my work for 4 hours and then come back home and do nothing and I feel like if I don't do something now, I'm going to fall into a deeper hole. I think I have really bad depression problems because I just want to sleep all day and even after I sleep for 7 to 8 hours a night, I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning and just feel tired. I really don't know what to do anymore and just feel like my life has no meaning and that I will never amount to anything. I don't even hang out with anyone and lost all my friends and haven't even gone out to "party" or a social event in years. I just hang out by myself everyday and every weekend and am getting sick of it but I have no idea what to do. I don't drink at all so I can't go to bars or clubs and I only smoke but since I stopped weed, I only smoke cigarettes now. So now to the topic of if I should start smoking again or not. I feel like if I start smoking I will go back to how I was but when I was smoking I wouldn't get all these depressed thoughts and never thought about these things but now since I stopped, I just keep thinking about being depressed. I don't know maybe this is the wrong place to talk about this but I really have no one or no where else to talk about this to. Thanks for reading and if you have any advice, I'd really appreciate it.
Talk to your parents about your collage thing.Don't stay at home and stay outside looking for a better job,or just doing anything just don't stay at home it's not gonna do anything to you.Shit happen's outside,not inside your home bro.The more you stay like this the more you fuck yourself,and it's a path to no good.
You need a girlfriend. Hopefully a smart one that will slap some sense into you. In all seriousness I hope you have some hobbies you like to do, maybe going golfing or to the beach or playing guitar will help you take your mind off your issues. Good luck! Sent from my iPhone using Grasscity Forum
Bodybuilding!!That's a thought to start with.Trust me it will change your life to positivity most important mentaly,wich is what you need.
I try and not stay inside my house everyday but I don't know what to do. I picked up a hobby of a gun and going to the gun range every two weeks but that's about it. I want to start exercising but I can't really afford a gym membership right now and am barely getting by right now with what I make. That's why I want to find a new full time job or just something I can work and then move up cause being at a job for 7 years with no chance to move up is not what I want and the only reason I am staying right now is because I need the money and I don't want to be jobless. I'm trying to find something to help me get my mind off my problems but it's hard and I honestly want to start taking up drinking just so I can go out and meet people but I don't want to become an alcoholic. I don't know I'm just seeing where life takes me right now and I know if I keep doing what I'm doing now, it's going to be worse for me and my depression.
Tell me about it man I keep wanting a girlfriend but I have no idea where I can even meet one. I don't want to go to bars or clubs and have a girl that drinks a lot cause I barely drink at all. It's hard as hell to find a stoner girl around my area cause they all just drink mostly. Ya I'm trying to find and do things to keep my mind busy but I'm starting to lose hope.
Well I think it's time for you to start doing something about it. The first order of business is find out what your interests are. What kind of job/career/life do you envision? What were your interests in high school? What made you passionate? Think long and hard about where you want to go and then make it happen. Make a list. Are you musical? Are you athletic? Are you artistic? What are your natural talents? What do you excel at or what have you always wanted to do. Going out drinking just to meet people is probably not the best avenue. Wouldn't you rather meet people that have your same interests and talents? I don't think alcoholism is a talent. But that's just me. Find out what it is that gets your heart pumping and pursue it with all your heart. Exercise. Someone mentioned that in an earlier post. You don't need a gym membership to exercise. Start walking, then jogging and finally running. You can use household goods as weights. I've done it before. Google it. There are plenty of videos and articles showing you how to exercise without needing a gym. This isn't just for getting you in shape. When you exercise your body releases endorphins that give you a feeling of well being. It's a natural high. The healthier your body is the better you feel. Eat healthy. Stop eating processed sugar and processed foods. It's poison. Your body has a hard time with processed foods. Eat fresh vegetables, fruits, whole grain, and healthy lean protein. Drink lots of water. Make better food choices. Go back to school. Make it happen. Once you're back find some good tutors. Even if you're good in a subject get a tutor. You're helping them make money and it helps you by learning good study habits. Stay away from Cannabis for a while. Your self-medicating. You've almost become dependent on it. Let it go for awhile until you get your life back on track. And finally, get thee to a therapist if the depression isn't easing up. Feeling down for prolonged periods of time can be an indication of some form of clinical depression. This requires proper treatment. Finally, no one succeeds at everything all the time. We've all had fails. Every famous person/celebrity/world leader/nobel prize winners will tell you they've failed more times than succeeded. Believe it or not but the building block of success is built on a foundation of fail. The trick is to never give up and be adaptable. Don't be afraid to start over. Don't be afraid to challenge yourself. Anyway, that's my two cents. I hope you find your niche.
I suffer from those same symptoms. I have tried life stoned, and I have tried life sober. I like being stoned. When I am sober, the depression increases 10 fold. And my anger level rises. When I am stoned, I trip out on everything like Tommy Chong.
Only had to read part of that.. If you're 25 making 12 an hour, stop doing anything that can limit your potential.. I understand different parts of the country make more or less and im In nj so it's more but I make 14 an hour testing biomedical equipment and I told my boss if he wants me to work more then I need to do my homework there instead of my house so I work essentially at 1/2 the rate if not worse I do during the summer (no school) and still am making more. Hope you figure something out man, can't do shit in life with anything less than 20-25$ an hour honestly. I'm in no way trying to throw it in your face, but maybe it'll motivate you. I'm 19 btw
This this this. Might I also suggest reading op? How long has it been since you picked up a good book? I met my girlfriend because every Tuesday between classes I would read at the coffee shop. She noticed me reading and was interested in the book, so we had a conversation. Seven months later, we're very happy and talking about moving in together. I guess the point is, get out and about. Even if you're just hanging out by yourself.
Sounds to me your bummed out because u dont have a job. I know how it feels. I hate being without a job, specially because being broke sucks. Staying home sucks if u do it all the time. Be honest with your parents. It sucks to be at the bottom been there plenty of times. Once u get the ball rolling dont stop for nobody. The sooner u become independent you will break some chains. If u ever get a girlfriend thats a whole new problem u gonna have to solve. Deal with your current situation first. Fix one problem at a time. Focus on one thing then the next. Once u have some stuff in order , relax in whatever way possible. Luckily I have my maryjane and I always got beers if I need them. I fell in my face plenty of times to figure this shit out. I might fall plenty of more times, but hey, we dont quit in half time brother.