My 2 cents: think about your self (first name) (last name), living on the planet Earth in whatever state and county and exact spot you're living at in the year 2009. Then, imagine the vast amounts of humans who have come before you and will come after you and consider the vast insignificance/smallness of "right now". All of that in mind, and assuming you're near death (who knows exactly what your situation is), fuck the laws, countries, nations, ideas, establishments, everything. You're a man (or woman I suppose) close to the end, go fucking do what you truly want. If you were to say "it is 100% physically impossible for me to get ahold of some real good bud through any means possible", I almost definitely wouldn't believe you