Last night my friend threw a party in honor of our other friend who is on leave from Korea. He is only in town for about 4-5 days, and we wanted to get everyone together for him. It was a real success - people I hadn't seen since high school showed up, even some flakes that always say they will and never do, you know? That's great, yeah? Except from the very start when people showed up, nobody had much of anything to say to each other. Everyone's body language was stiff. People were so rude to each other...and this was all among people I considered good friends. I'm reconsidering now. Everyone knew each other, there wasn't any hostility. Just isolation. How you can give someone a halfassed hug without putting your stupidass cell phone down for one fucking minute I don't know. The man of the hour barely said anything to anyone, and he simply didn't say anything to some people. He couldn't be bothered to say goodbye when he left. Everyone just seems so impersonal these days. Nobody seems to want to make the effort. Well I fucking do. I care. I talk to people and I break the ice and I get people laughing and I pay attention to anyone that gives me theirs. Because I believe that's how it should be. There is honesty within attention. I know there are exceptions. This one girl I've known since high school was trying to flirt and would insert herself right beside me at some points, and sad to say I'm just not attracted to her. I wasn't an asshole, but I didn't lead her on. A balance can be found. But at the end of the night when we all left, I still felt terrible about it all. It persists today. I'm trying to keep faith but I'm losing more of it every day. Have you seen this among your friends? Do you know this impersonal vibe I'm speaking of? Tell me what you think about it.