I would not like to be labeled a troll, so please don't read this if your a flamer. First off here are a few things: I have been smoking "tobacco" for about two years now. (19yrsold) I am bipolar. For about 12 years I've been thinking about offing myself, now I will NOT ever do it because it would hurt those around me. ( so please don't post "don't do it) Now I've come to understand the reason for the way i think and do things and I have come up with this: What are you supposed to do if the person you absolutely hate is yourself? Like you hate that people could enjoy you as a person, because not even you do, and that other people could say a thousand more positive things about you than you could yourself.