sorry to take up forum space. but im not sure what a moderators inbox here looks like and frankly im not even sure who to pm to begin with. i tried sending an email to the forum master at the email provided for account deletion but it's been well over a month so i guess its not happening. no worries though, i'd just like to see it taken care of sooner rather than later. anyway it's been.. interesting here. its my personal belief that the internet, in most instances, especially those in e-forums, provide nothing more than a temporary escape from the real world and real interactions with human beings. the web is probably the most detrimental thing to the human psyche and ambition that anyone is ever exposed to in their lifetimes and for that reason, i've found, for me, the most healthy thing i could do for myself right now would be removing myself from internet activity. i understand that drama comes in all mediums. however, id prefer to reserve the brunt of those encounters with actual human beings in the REAL world and not those who (seemingly) only exist in the cloud of anonymity and fabrication that is the internet. this isn't your lives people. internet addiction (benign, in most cases) exists and the more and more time you spend on here and other interactive, aggressive environments, the more your soul (if you believe there exists such a thing) is ripped apart. dramatic as it may sound, it's a truth for many people and though you might be in denial of the power the internet has over many of your own lives, there stands truth in what i say. im not in any way suggesting that members of this forum follow my example by deleting their own accounts, i do not (contrary to what my prior statements may have implied) believe this website to be an inherently evil (if you also believe such a thing exists) place to begin with, and may serve in more than one way as an outlet for many of those seeking companionship and interaction with others sharing similar interests, but for others its nothing more than an escape and ego-aggrandizing institution that distances you further and further from the lives you should be living with real people. im not here to make judgments, god knows im absolutely no one to judge. but if anything i've said here hits home for you i'd advise taking an unbiased look at your activity and interactions both here and beyond this website and really ask yourself if this is how you want to spending your life, interacting with strangers that wont know your name a year from now. dependency can be a hard thing to recognize, but if you are visiting this site multiple times a week, even days, it might be time for a good dose of a reality check. hard as it is to admit it, many of the people you think you know here and on other sites, regardless of the amount of time you've "known" them, are impostors and frauds. they do not care about you. im sorry to be frank but unfortunately its the cold hard reality of the situation that there exist many-a-person in this quaint world we live in that would like nothing more than to deceive you into thinking they are someone they are not, for purposes of either fueling their own deluded realities they have created for themselves, or in other instances, to serve an array of more perverted and sinister ends in mind.. anyway, i appreciate the time and what i have learned here and if i had the option of erasing my presence here entirely from my existence, i would not. but fortunately i now recognize at this point it's time for me to leave and not return, period. thank you to all those that have shown me kindness of this website, i wish nothing but the best for ALL members of this community and success in all endeavors of your lives, your real lives. peace.