Weed made me feel EVIL mental anguish

Discussion in 'Real Life Stories' started by Annonymous user, Jan 31, 2013.

  1. Let me start off by saying I have been a proud daily toker for about 7 years, since I was about 15. Now, I decided to not smoke for a week, get my tolerance down. Once I did, I had a homemade cannabis cookie in the afternoon. I felt minimal effects for a couple hours. So, I then decided to have a bong hit. A decently sized one at that. Not a minute goes by, and I get zanged with that old fashioned intense high. Like when I first started smoking. Only, it didn't stop there, it gradually got more and more intesne. I thought, "Ok, I'm just having a bad trip, I consumed too much this time, but I will be ok." I began to get scared which I expected. Then things took a turn for the worse. I felt coherent, able to converse as I do normally, only inside my head there was absolute chaos. I felt this very EVIL feeling trying to take hold of me. As if (yes, I know it's stupid) the government had hit a switch on me to make me harm myself without my own will to do it. Following that, naturally I got scared for others. I did not WANT to harm myself or others, but I felt like something was trying to force me to do it. Now I knew in my heart that I would be strong enough to- if it took hold of me- fight it enough to merely take myself out of the picture. Even so, the thought was absolutely terrifying, and what felt like fighting it was what caused my mental anguish. Like my brain was melting away, and I was helpless. I highly considered calling the police and having them escort me to a mental facility where maybe they can med me into "blankness". I would honestly rather die or have NOTHING in my head than ever go through this again. I am honestly shookin up about this. When I see a picture of death, it makes me sick to my stomach as it is because I am a very empathetic person, I ALWAYS treat people the way I want to be treated. So imagine the fear that went through my head.

    In conclusion, I always will condone the usage for real medical problems, however the only thing I ask is that you be extremely carefull not to go to far with it. I used to be the biggest advocate of getting high, now I'm scared to death of it. Before anyone asks, it was from a trusted dealer, and I was not the only one who smoked it. Although it did feel like NOTHING else I've ever experienced. In fact, I'm going to see a doctor as soon as possible to see if maybe I "knocked something loose" even though I feel fine now (the day after). Much love.
     

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