went to hospital this week - potential surgery. my friend died today. i'm broke, in debt, my roommate keeps snapping at me cuz we're both... confused, in a bad frame of mind from our friend and we're having all misunderstandings. theres so much more wrong, but i'm really just venting because i dont know why this happened today. sorry if this didn't make sense, i'm sober and feel more fucked up in the head than any drug has ever made me feel, wtf. rip buddy, you made a lasting impression on everyone who met you - wish i had more than the 3 years at school to get to know you. the world doesn't make sense i'm dry, so i guess this next tear's for you bud, this never should have happened
thought my spring break sucked cause i didn't go anywhere. you put it in perspective. keep your head up man
that sucks bro, a tragic young death really changes perspective on life, 4 people my sister knew were in cottage country and went to the golf club for some beers, the golf club overserved them, then they went to drive back to the cottage. on the way they drove off a bridge, it killed the driver, passenger, and one in the back. one girl who didnt get knocked unconcious got out of her window in the water and survived. the dad of the driver tried to change all the young drivers laws in ontario but it didnt work out. some i agreed with some i didnt. did your friend die tragically or from an illness? my other buddy has lymphoma right now and is doin the chemo.. i always bring him a sesh to bun. im hoping he is gonna be alright.
they're not sure - he just.... didn't wake up. they think it may have been aneurism, but.,. i guess drugs are a possibility though it hasnt been mentioned
dam man sorry to hear that. and i thought my break was gonna blow because im grounded. next bowls for him bro.
sorry to hear that man but keep ur head up. [ame=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JlQcJAjYxaI]YouTube - 2pac-gotta keep ya head up[/ame] God puts us thru all these struggles to c if we r strong enough to get thru it. Keep ur head up homie.
thats some bad shit man, its been almost a year since one of my greatest friends killed himself. i know just how it is to lose someone so unexpectedly. hope you and your roommate/friends can hold together and help each other and not break apart
dont let people fuck with his memory by saying it was drugs, last year a guy i knew from my area died at university from being burned to death in his dorm room. a lysol bottle exploded behind his minifridge in residence, but people had the nerve to say he was freebasing coke with a torch that exploded.
Usually I can find some answers from this link The Meaning of Life, it isn't the solution to all problems but it has some great perspectives. Sorry about your friend..
Sorry about your buddy, this next L i blaze will be for him. Times are hard but if you stick through it you'll be okay. I don't know exactly what's going on but realize it's just a phase man, nothing more. Floyd I know you have a good head on your shoulders and if you use it, it will get you through this in no time. Be safe buddy.
Thanks everyone for the kind words and support. I still can't wrap my head around it, it doesn't feel real yet. I'll be driving to ny to pay my respects... he never even got to see his family before spring break ended I got in my car today thinking about him, and as soon as the radio comes on, the first thing i hear is "only the good die young..." i literally cried the whole way back to my house. my mom keeps asking if im ok and i keep saying yea, dno why we feel compelled to keep all these feelings inside the college neighborhood scene will never be the same, and neither will any of our lives - if anything this will bring us all closer together; monday is going to be one of the most difficult days of my life as far as the drugs go - nobody really thinks thats what happened, its just something that comes to everyones mind when a kid doesn't wake up - his memory will live on as one of the most sincere and joyous people funny, a lot of people's status' about him mention blazin' up there with pac he was the glue that held and brought everyone together. so outgoing. the group may not be the same but it will never break apart - theres probably 200+ people driving hundreds of miles to pay their respects. In reference to one of my all time favorite movies that was on today "Nobody cares, huh? you were wrong about that one, Sonny."
Losing a close friend, as I have, twice, is tragic, but also life affirming. And although things seem dire presently, and you can't imagine ever recovering. You will. Grief is a necessary process for you to overcome the situation. Be sad, reminisce, but don't let it hold you back for too long. I let it hold me back for a long time and it affected my life in ways you couldn't imagine. Peace be with you in the upcoming weeks.
thanks brother. its already changed me for the better. I was very apathetic about life and kinda didn't care whether i was alive or not. always had that "mama, i don't wanna die, sometimes wish i never was born at all," attitude. Sometimes when i was driving, i'd think how i wouldnt even care if i crashed and died, but my whole attitude went 360 degrees almost immediately. This never should have happened, and its terrible, but something good always comes out of something tragic, even if the tragedy outweighs everything else. I'm sure this has touched a lot of people in similar ways. THis still feels like a bad nightmare i've yet to wake up from - or like some seriously perverse joke... i'm dreading the service "we were but stones. Your light made us stars"
Two of my best friends have been stabbed. One died in my arms. The other died over 2 weeks. I didn't go to either service. And they were both my closest friends. Unlike you, I have always had the 'don't give a fuck' attitude towards life, even more so when they passed. I was saying about 'not letting it hold you back', but I've failed miserably when it comes to this. Everyday in my thoughts. I can actually say I'm depressed, I don't like to use the term and label myself with something, but I really couldn't give a fuck about anything anymore. 'I smoke a blunt to take the pain out, and if I wasn't high I'd probably try to blow my brains out' That's me all over.
just like my buddy. he gave everything he had to everyone else, all his love and strength. gave it all away and had nothing left to hold himself together. he brought a bunch of us together that probably would never even have met otherwise and now we're like a family, for me these friends are more of a family then my biological one.