i like to think of myself as a nice guy, but idk i think i come off as kinda cold. especially to my familly, i snap at my mom whenever she asks me to do somthing. i feel bad and i've tried to change, but i can't, idk why. and with just random people im kinda agressive. like i never start anything, but if i think someones tryin to pull some shit i go on the offensive.im a short guy, bout 5'3, and my whole life i have had people walk all over me or fuck with me. i think i just gradually got tired of it and now i don't trust anyone. I've gotten into some insane stare offs with people. like i try to be nice, with most people i have no problem. but i can't stand some shit. i've had a guy throw his fucking hamburger at my car. a fuckin hamburger. dickheads. now whenever i think someones gonna fuck with me, i make sure nothing happends. i make sure no matter how big they are nothings gona happen. i'm not like this ALL the time, just certain situations. also, when im not on the offensive, and im with my friends, im mad funny. like have a real good sense of humor. but i noticed everything that comes outta my mouth is a joke (literally) and i dont get taken seriosuly alot (i think thats how i lost my last girl). theres this guy i met at my last job, this guy smokes mad weed, but he's so chill man. nicest guy i've ever met in my life. he's not like hippie or anything he's just got good morals i guess, despite him growing up in the same area at me. i respect this kid alot. i want people to respect me you know? so if you didn't wana read all that, my question is, you think smoking more (not 24/7..) could help me have a little more patience with my familly, be less negative towards people i don't know, and mellow out a bit while still keepin ma funny? or should i work on it sober? i basicly know how i wana change in my head, its just hard to put that plan into action.