...because i am to darn shy and quiet. In my early years i used to be an outgoing,funny kid and had many friends. I giess you could call me "popular". When i was in about my freshman year of highschool i started to hangout with "skater". I made really good friends with this kid S and i he was my new bestfriend...me and him did everything together and were basically like brothers. So as years go on as good friends he starts to act weird and ignores my calls and then some other friends in our group start to ignore me. I get info from other ppl that he doesnt like me and were no longer friends and hes basically told everyone bad things about me and that i was gay and shiz......fast forward soo now i have like only enough friends to count on my hand. Things die off with me and s and were friends now but i dont chill with him...anyways i get a new friend group and ever since that time period. Im a diffrent person, im not funny, the only ppl i hamgout with are the ones in my neighborhood. Im tired of it. Being shy sucks. (espicially with girls) I feel like i cant trust anyone and have a huge wall of defense i dont know how to let it down... Idk if im in right section...i thought philsophy...butt any help on letting that barrier down.