turning over a new leaf...

Did you ever ask S what happened? Even if he won't answer you, at least you'll have tried. If he does, you'll know and it may give you some peace of mind. Honestly, I'd recommend that as your first course of action. Once that's done, move on. Forget him and stop caring what people think about you. They're going to think what they want to think no matter what you do, so why waste your time worrying about it?

Do what makes you happy, and if something doesn't make you happy (such as having a huge wall of defense), then don't do it. If people think you're gay, who cares? The people who care will ask you, and you can set them straight (no pun intended). Realize that the only thing holding you back is you.

 

CKTony I keep running into you doing the same thing I am right about this time of the night....

 

Dude drop some acid and forget these fools.........

 

The world works in mysterious ways

 

bottom line is you need to not give a shit about what other people think...you have a right to be yourself on this planet....just the way you are....just as much as anybody else...be free and stay lifted

 

Who cares how many friends who have? Quality> Quantity in the friends dept.

I try to hang out with certain groups and they just completely mute my personality also. My new approach is going to be to just hang out with the people from those groups that I like instead of trying hanging out with the whole group.

About your old best friend. people change, sometimes what is satisfying for a long time might become unsatisfying with a change of perspective for an individual.