Trippin Out

Sorry if this is the wrong place, but I wasn't sure where to put it. I really need help here though. I think I have psychosis, but it only seems like it comes out when I come down or starting coming down from being really high. I just started smoking in November, and became a regular smoker in January, I'd say 5-6 times a week. Started talking to this girl I met at a show and it has alot to do with her as well. She lives almost 2 hours away and we've only chilled once cuz my work schedule is always changing and shit. We seemed to have everything in common though and she's told me shes wanted to be with me and shit but thing is she has a boyfriend right now. I'm cool with that and all but here lately I've tripped out on her now about 4 or 5 times thinking she's just been fucking with my head, and really isn't interested in me at all. When it happens it usually last a day or to before it wears off. The first few times I've sumwhat explained to her what i felt and she was cool enough to understand and blew it off like it never happened but last night I think I kinda crossed the line with it and I'm not even sure if she'll even wanna talk to me again . The question I have is anybody have any advice as to what I can do to prevent this from happening? I love smoking and usually always have a good high but when I come down I start tripping out sometimes. So any help would be appreciated and sorry for the long post but I had to get this off my chest and don't really feel like talking to anybody about it at the moment.

 

There's kind of a reason I say psychosis though. A couple of the times I tripped out, I had some really out there ideas that I'm not even gonna get into. But she a smoker as well and understood I was just tripping out really bad. But yea, as much as I like her and tried to make myself think it would work, I'm thinking about just telling her I think it's a good idea for us to stop talking. I'm just worried about myself though because it's happened with other situations than just her, but when I trip on her it's usually the worst I guess because i'm somewhat have feelings for her. I just don't want to end things with her in such a shitty way.