So many times I try to initiate sex, and so many times I'm denied. I'm starting to feel like I'm in some sort of friendzone in my relationship that's coming up on 3 years now. Sex for us is literally a once a month thing, and when we do have sex it usually just feels like she's just letting me have it without actually being into it. She will only do missionary position and cowgirl, doesn't care for me to eat her out, won't give me a blowjob (even on my birthday!). Just last night I tried to initiate sex, barely touched her knee, she flinched, and asked me for a back rub (ahÃ y would only put her to sleep. I've talked to her, she seems to acknowledge that she is never horny, but it never gets us anywhere... I'm 24 and I'm constantly horny with absolutely no outlet except masturbation, but that shit gets real old, real fast. There so much I want to do with her, and want her to do with me, but it just feels like I'm on a sinking ship. I can break up with her, but that's easier said than done since we have a kid, and I would have nowhere to go. I'm thinking about talking to women at my college when I go back and possibly having an affair.