Well let\'s just say I have a big problem. Crazy anxiety up the ass. Right now I take 2mg of klonopin a day to keep it calm, but instead I just smoke bud and... give away... the klonopin. Wake up today to find cops are on my ass about the kpins because some chick went home too fucked up. For some reason before I checked the voicemail I knew something was wrong. I get this feeling every once in awhile, and have yet to figure it out... nothing sets it off, and it is TORMENTING me. I feel literally psychotic. This feeling deep inside me, undescribable, feels like i can snap any moment... kinda like I already have and my mind is trying to keep it under control. I won\'t lie I have lost control and have done things from crying to breaking very expensive things... I literally cannot help it. Today I have to clean the place which is kinda a good and bad thing. The tedious work normally would help keep me sane, but today I was flippin out at everything... I couldn\'t even go a minute without throwing something, or breakin something I was using to clean with. Made more of a mess than I cleaned until I had some help from my friend when he got home from work. So... it was already late and EVERYONE is really sketched and paranoid about the cops because of this whole kpin ordeal and because of all this... I can\'t get any bud. I am in a horrible, psychotic state, and I knew a nice joint (joint specifically) could help. I like to puff on a joint and just think... something about mary jane alone that helps me put things into perspective, but joints... man i love joint. So this post is kind of random, but I really needed to rant. This psychotic feeling I fear will REALLY one day get the best of me. For now, I have it mostly under control, but tonight it gonna be tough. Tonight\'s arsenal: Blue ones are the 1mg Klonopin. course I have a pill bottle for em I just like having them in there for some reason. That little white pill is a POS 0.25mg xanax... ehh it\'ll boost the relaxation. And to top it off a small roach from my dad. Yea... I actually called my parent\'s at like 1:30am in my episode and wound up with a xanax and a roach... go figure. I respect my parents so much... not for giving me drugs, but because I know how much they care. I\'v put em through a lot.
Thats rough shit dude. I\'m sorry you gotta go through that. I\'ve been dealing with anxiety as well since my early teens, but it seemed to get about five times as bad once I stopped doing blow, oddly enough. My anxiety isn\'t quite as bad as yours, so I can\'t say that I know exactly how you feel... but I\'ve got a bit of an idea, and I know it sucks major ass. Hope everything turns out for the best. Good vibes your direction.
Well, after the xanax, klonopin and the joint im not high (for the record benzos dont get me high anyways), but I am much more calm. I\'m about to go cook something up and enjoy life a little. Peace, GC.
i know exactly how you feel man definelty been in similar situations (not nesc with cops but just the anxiety/mental state) just take some time to chill out and try not to lose it before shit gets worse
You probably need the relief one gets from hard physical labor!!!!! Even Cesar Milan says a dog gets that way when they haven\'t had adequate exercise! Go chop up some wood, or haul some heavy-ass thing up a hill, something! Get out there, man!!
what you should do is stop \"giving away\" your meds and start taking them. im sure that the money your getting isnt shit, and it definitely wont be shit when you have to go through court over them. and im sure the people your giving away to dont think shit of you, and thats why as soon as someone figures out they are high off something they are gonna rat your ass out as soon as they can. learn who to trust and make better decisions, then and only then will your anxiety ease up and youll feel better.
you need to give some OTCs a try i am an anxiety-head. prescribed xanax but only take it for recreational use stuff ive tried: 5htp - Works for awhile but stopped for anxiety Valerian - only good when im about to sleep Kava - Hit or miss, its inconsistent Omega3 Concentrated Fish oils - Now you might not believe me, but this thing actually has relieved my anxiety the most. check it out on wikipedia, it actually lowers some of the symptoms of anxiety like high serotonin levels. its also very good for all your organs i recommend you trying it. take like 1.5 gms a day. havent tried but going to - St johns Worth i understand where you are coming from, the psychotic feelings, thinking like your going to break. you are not alone, and you should give some otcs a try, i guarantee one of them will relieve your symptoms. good luck.
Eh ya I broke my phone ripped my pants and carved \"the end\" into my stomach a couple of days ago from a panic attack and afterwards thanked god that there were no pills around at the time. I ended up getting prescribed to Lexapro (I decided it was time to go for antidepressants seeing as my supply of weed is too inconsistent and expensive). The doc said I have something called \"anxiety depression\" which is like anxiety/panic attacks brought on by depression and I have to be tested for thyroid something. Anyways it really helps so far (been about 3 weeks) though weed helped me in that area as well (I would feel good for a day or so after I smoked weed) but unfortunately stopping smoking was a bad decision and it\'s basically the same as if I were to stop taking the lexapro (make me break down and have a horrible panic attack again) so ya I sort of know how you feel in that area and I would probably recommend taking the kpins as a med and smoking the weed for relaxation.
Ive got that same psychotic (schizoid) state as youve got dude. and also some MAJOR anxiety...Not good at all. so many ppl who do drugs describe this anxiety and mental state..haha...I only do weed though..
Thanks, man. I appreciate the kind words. I used to be a MMA fighter, and still train from time to time. I excersize (running, ghost boxing, etc) every day. Psychical excersize doesn\'t help; I always hoped it would. a. I sell/trade them so I can get weed. As desperate as that sounds it\'s not. Its a way for me to afford the medication that has truely helped me more than anything or anyone ever has, but my state doesn\'t have the correct laws for me to be able to do this in peace. b. These are very close friends, who we each have inifinite amounts of respect for one another. These aren\'t your typic \"hang out\" friends, more like brothers and sisters. c. I\'m not bothered by dealing with the law\'s consequences. I\'v done it before, and why should I ever let a hypocritical law scare me? Where would we be today if people didn\'t break the law. d. I make the best decisions I can. I spend a lot of time contemplating situations and always looks at things from other perspectives. Maybe I\'m over-analyzing, who knows, heh. My intentions that night was never to get fucked up. Just like I said, benzos don\'t get me high. Metaphorically, they are the ADHD kid\'s Adderall to me. Iv seen friend very fucked up on 2-3mg of klonopin. I can take 2x that much as not get high (forewarning: don\'t try that at home) I have tried a few but to no avail, but don\'t get me wrong, that doesn\'t mean I haven\'t stopped looking. Shit... Omega3 is in my eggs every morning Iv been through countless medications sincem may of 07 when I finally decided to see a doc about my depression. Since then weed has helped me cure my depression, and supress my anxiety, among other things, but it hasn\'t seemed to help truely cure my anxiety, though it helps a great deal. I\'m not going to tell you not to take Lexapro, but I have been down that road and found no hope. I was on the majority of the SSRIs, MAOIs, all the types, and nothing has stood up to cannabis\'s healing powers. (Note all of these medications have been taking during times I was smoking, but also not smoking to test results). When I say not smoking, I mean I took a break, not I wasn\'t high. I have had every test just about known to man done on me, with no progress. Well, I can\'t say that... it cancelled out a lot of possible causes. I have been through many attacks like that, a similar one to yours I was in the fetal position scratching the back of my neck because the pain helped relieve the anxious thoughts. I wound up bleeding quite a bit. My advice, from someone who has been there, is to be around someone you; trust, love, or even just care for. Someone who knows about your anxiety and even though they don\'t understand it, will do anything to help you feel better. (If you live with your parents I suggest going to them immediately when you feel the attack coming on, even if its like 3-4am.) Well, I won\'t deny my drug use has greatly increased these symptoms over the years. Do I regret doing acid, shrooms, E, weed, all of those drugs? Hell No. They have changed my perspective in life for the better, and even if you have the worst trip of your life on a psychedelic, you come out the next day with new pure, true knowledge cemented into your brain. I have learned to cope A LOT with anxiety (and what little depression I have still), but our mind is a very powerful thing. I plan on one day being able to see through the third eye, maybe ask myself a few question as to why I get this way I Really appreciate the advice and kind words everyone, really, I do.
what state do you live in? i would really look into medical MJ if you lived in a state like mine (cali), but most likely im guessin you live somewhere where you cannot get ahold of an oppurtunity like this. im just saying that im sure you could find another way to get cash for weed, than you wont have to deal with the police, and even though the law is bullshit most of the time, its still the law, and the law doesnt lose, you do. every time. so no matter how much you disagree with a law. if you break it you will face the consequences. i think its bull shit that acid isnt availabe on every street corner, but if i walked to the nearest corner and start selling acid what do you think would happen the first time a cop sees me do it. i hope that your syptoms of anxiety are dealt with somehow. i know how it sucks my sister has panic attacks and anxiety and she suffers alot. i hope you feel better and smoke some bud! later ziggy
smoke consistent for 6 months{diesel}. Stopped middle november. then 1/4 of some low grade in dec. blazed once on january 4th. clean since. drank water and worked out. 5-9 167lbs. took home and passed . Am I safe or should i take another home test before i go.