think im gonna stay off the drugs for a while

so i tripped acid the other day....had a great trip and everything. you guys know that weed is a potentiator to acid, so even when i came down when i would smoke weed i would feel the acid again.

well i kind of had a bad trip....not really bad but i'll explain.

i was gonna go out to eat wit my gf. i took a hit of weed (knowing that the acid will be in effect) but took a much bigger hit than i expected. i was trippin and realized that my gf cant see me like this and was getting anxious. i tried to calm down but even when my mind was calm, my heart was beating like crazy. usually im good at controlling how anxious i am on drugs, and i have this technique where i close my eyes and breathe in and out slowly to calm down but it just wouldnt work.

i had to make up this elaborate lie to my gf on why i couldnt see her.....i felt kinda bad so i cleaned my house (yes, on acid). maybe i was trying to cleanse system of the drugs by physically cleaning. i spent about 3 hours cleaning everything and thinking about everything that just happened and came to the conclusion that i need to stop everything. i was on a tolerance break previously anyway but only smoked because i got my acid, so it was already my original intention.

it was stupid to even smoke knowing that the acid was still in my system, but i didnt plan on taking such a huge hit (factoring in my tolerance has lowered since i havent been smoking so it shot me way up there).

i had a dream about my gf and we were getting ready to hang out....but i woke up before we could hang out in my dream (which basically happened in real life when i couldnt see her). i woke up really wanting to hang out with her but couldnt because she was out somewhere, and i have to go to work tonight so we wont see each other today. i feel bad because she really wanted to see me yesterday and i fucked that up, and now i wanted to see her and couldnt. i woke up in my house alone without my brother there, and for some reason that made me sad even though i am used to being alone and usually love it.

i dont know guys, hopefully im just feeling the after effects of trippin but that experience has told me that maybe i was abusing it. im not a "druggie" or anything, i hope u guys dont get the wrong idea. the day before i had an amazing introspective trip, i shouldve just left it at that and stopped smoking but i kept smoking which was stupid. i only did it because when i was high on it my music was amazing and i wanted to keep writing under that halo, but i see how a musician can go insane or die quickly from that, so remember that moderation is the key guys. sorry for the long ass post, hope it makes sense.

 

yea i know, im just stopping for the time being because i need to get a job and i cant have filthy piss, not forever. i ddidnt plan on doing acid often anyway, i wait months before i do it again. she knows i smoke weed and shes tried it before....i told her i do lsd and wanted her to try it, she says she is thinking about it .

i just didnt want her to know that i was high and that was the reason that we couldnt see each other.