The most glorious week ever seeing two beautiful women and the inevitable devastation

This is a long one guys so bare with me...

To the start the story off, I've been borderline in love with my best female friend for a very long time, like almost a year now I guess. For the sake of this thread I'll call her Jenny. To put it simply, she's everything I want in a woman and I posted a few friends about it way back when. She was with this asshole for 5 years who treated her like shit and she sure wasn't ready for a relationship for a long time. This was nearly 6 months ago now. At the same time we couldn't have casual sex because I would have ended up getting really really hurt and it would have our friendship. I accepted that, and though it crushed me at the time I slowly moved on. I've still always harbored a real soft spot for her and remained best friends since. She went to stay with her family for most of the summer and I didnt see her for two months.

I went on a bit of a rampage after that and got over her the only way I know, sleeping with several random women. One of them in particular was very sweet and I got on great with her. I'll call her Rachel for the purpose of this thread. She stayed over my house for like a week and things were going great. Then I went to stay with my family for a week and obviously didn't see her. When I was home I was texting Jenny quite a lot and these texts became increasingly raunchy in nature, to the point where we basically arranged a vodka fuelled fuckfest for when I got back. I thought nothing much of this at the time as I assumed it was just a bit of innocent horny drunk texting.

Anyway when I got back that Saturday Rachel stayed at my house and much of Sunday. Like usual, we had carnal, animalistic sex many times. Later that night I went round to Jenny's and had a drink with her. Our mutual male friend came over and we got drunk as fuck and smoked a large quanity of grade. Nothing at all looked like happening until he left, at which point Jenny came and sat on the couch by me and we started cuddling. This cuddling inevitably turned into kissing and the kissing inevitably turned into sex.

I stayed at hers that night and we had some of the most incredible sex I have ever experienced with anyone ever. Then things went back to normal like it never happened. We sat on opposite couches and were like Harry Potter and Hermione once again, minus all the hocus pocus. Then that night we got drunk again and invited our mutual friend 'Charles' to the party (you know, the white guy who is overly fond of exploring peoples nostrils) and had out of this world mind blowing twisted up sex. Then the next day things went back to normal, no cuddling or nothing. Then the next night I stayed over and we had amazing sex again, then back to platonic nothingness again. This is how its been nearly every night this week.

On Friday I had some absolutely devastating news that has cut up my family into pieces. This, on top of the emotiona turmoil of these weird situation, has been extremely difficult to deal with and I've been too weak not to turn to weed, drugs and alchohol. This, in the long run, has not helped and I am trying to lay off the substances for a few days at least to clear my head somewhat.

On Saturday Jenny made it very obvious she was really confused about the situation and was acting quite off with me. She asked me to go home rather than stay at hers and that was understandable. She's obviously really conflicted about thing and feels bad about sleeping with me all week. The trouble was though, I was in one of the emotionally fragile states I've ever experienced and needed female comfort like a methhead needs a teenth. This of course led me to calling Rachel and she came over and stayed with me. Call me pathetic or a chauvanist dick or whatever you want, but if you had the same weekend that I had, then youd need some serious comfort too.

When she went I felt hollow and empty. I stumbled across an unopened email by my mum before she... did what she did on Friday, and I just burst into tears. It was like a knife in the spleen and I've been a mess ever since. That was earlier today.

Jenny also text me saying she wants a serious talk about this week and I'm about to go round hers and oblige her. I am dreading this talk and don't know what to say. I really care about her but right now my head is a total fucking mess. I know pretty much the only way to keep her is to play the jealousy card, but that's not fair on either girl and I'm not like that. I am, contrary to what this thread suggests, a decent guy. I've just fallen into the trap of two beautiful women and am paying the price.

I'll update you all on the situation.

 

Thanks for the support guys, I was expecting more negativity about seeing two women but I appreciate the understanding nature of peoples' responses.

I had a really good night with Jenny tonight and she cheered me up a lot. We smoked lots of bud and got a lushious takeaway and watched comedy shows until 2am. We didnt talk about it for most of the night and I was even gonna go without bringing it up, but at one point she smiled and pointed out I'd come round for a reason.

It was a very awkward and brief conversation with lots of verbal stumbling and bumbling. She basically told me what I already knew, that she was really confused about the situation and that we can't keep having sex. This is understandable. In my country there's what we call the 'five shag rule' where you get a maximum of five casual fucks before you have to talk and it either ends or becomes more serious. Me and Jenny are considerably into double figures and this talk was long overdue.

Theres one thing she said that got me and that was 'I'll let you know if I change my mind'. I'm not her toy that she can pick up and play with whenever she pleases and if she wasn't her then Id have told her to kindly go fuck herself. I know she didn't mean it like that though, she was just very stoned and it came out a little carelessly. Still, I had half a mind to inform her that I was still very much seeing Rachel and by the time she makes up her mind it might well be too late.

I held my tongue though. It may well have been the truth but then it isnt fair on Rachel to wield her as an object in order to win another girl. I do geniunely apprECiate Rachel for who she is and will see where things go with her. I have kept her under no illusions as to where we stand and she said she likes things the way she is.

Although this makes things easier however, it doesn't change things.

I still pretty much love Jenny and really want to be with her. She's everything I want in a female, we click on all levels and we have mind blowing sex. The circumstancial factors are just very complicated.

Rachel, as cool as she is, is sadly just a very sexy lady I met at the wrong time. If we met when Jenny was still with her ex then we almost certainly be together right now. We didn't though and we're not.

I am at a loss of what to do. This situation, on top of what has happened with my mum, is extremely difficult. Fuck this girl situation is much easier to cope with than the other shit. Its to be expected really, the greatest time of ones life is often followed by the worst. I just gotta stay strong and keep on the rails. I'm about to go into my final year of university and it's critical I stay focused.

thanks once again for the love and support people.

 

Sorry guys it's been a busy week. But I haven't updated since the start of the week so here's another one.

On Tuesday I wasn't gonna see Jenny but she called me up after work to see what I was doing and that she wanted to come over. I told her I was going for a smoke round my friends house on the other side of town and she was welcome to come. She did and we had a great night of getting real high and making each other laugh. It was like the rest of the people in the room may as well not have been there and she'd randomly catch my eye and smile. On the way home we were joking around constantly and I walked her back so she didn't get attacked by any mandem prowling the streets. I could tell by the way she was looking at me she wanted to say something but she didn't. She was saying how she's done no exercise in the last week and I was like 'who are you kidding? We''ve done LOADS of exercise. Probably burned off like 10,000 calories at least.' She laughed loads at that and was like 'thats the best exercise I can think of,' to which I replied, 'back to running it is eh?' She looked quite sad by this.

A key point in the evening was when she asked me what I was doing the following evening and I point blank said I was gonna be seeing Rachel. Her face froze up and she looked really unhappy for a moment. I could tell that was gonna play on her mind and it did.

The next day I was at work and couldn't stop thinking of Jenny. Like, she was on my mind constantly. Rachel was meant to be stopping at mine and I just didn't want to see her. I haven't felt anything for her since the whole Jenny thing happened and I decided to break things off with her.

I was pretty much completely honest about the situation (without going into serious detail) and she took it horrifically badly. She called me every name under the sun and told me never to even attempt to talk to her again. I didn't expect her to take it quite so badly but she took it as bad as could be.

I didn't feel right using her as an object though and maybe one day she'll look back on this and realise I did the honest thing, even if it hurt at the time.

Later that day Jenny text me saying she made the wrong decision and that she really misses me when Im not with her and she cant stand the thought of me being with someone else. This was an immense relief, especially after breaking things off with Rachel so dramatically and I felt a strange melancholy tinged euphoria at the situation.

Needless to say, I went round Jennys that night and we got drunk and fucked for hours on end and had an awesome night. The next day we cuddled loads and I stayed over again.

However, my Grandma rang extremely upset telling me my mums condition had deterorated and I needed to come home to spend some time with my family. Again, the mix of emotions I have felt in this past two weeks have been absolutely ridicolous and a huge drain. I've smoked insane amounts of ganja but it's only a temporary relief and the last couple of days I've been clean just to clear my head a bit.

Work gave me the week off in light of things but because I've called in so many times in the past two weeks they have slashed my hours down to one shift a week which proper sucks. But I'm not in the right frame of mind to be going to work at the moment anyway and that's all there is to it.

As of now, I don't know where I stand with Jenny but at least I know she has feelings for me. I'm taking things slow and haven't asked her out officially as I'm afraid she'll give me the 'I'm not ready for another relationship'. I miss her a lot but I need to be with my family at this moment in time and will be staying at home till midweek.

 

Yes, you have COMPLETELY interpreted my OBVIOUSLY non figurative description of Charles correctly...

But thanks for the positive responses guys. I've had some good news, my Mum is looking better today and her infection is clearing up. She is still in intensive care but is not as bad as she was the other day when she had a dip. I'm going back tommorow night and will return to work on Monday. I live permanently in the city I study at just to clarify.

 

Yeah I think I will ask her out this week if things keep going well. She is a wonderful chick and to add to her allure, she is an absolute wizard on the guitar...

 

I saw my mom at the hospital last Sunday. That was hard. I didn't know what I was expecting but seeing her all bandaged up on life support was fucking awful and is a sight that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. At the time my emotions were flying all over the place and I entered the hospital, and left it, with stone faced solemn. I said some things to the nurse I regret, not because my words were rude, or inappropriate, but because they were entirely personal and I confided some things in that pretty young red head that I wouldn't have told to my closest family.

But she is alive and will recover, even if her road to healing will be long and hard. No matter what, she has the love of her son and the love of her family. The doctors are waking her up this weekend and she is no longer in critical condition. I pray the Lord has mercy on her, as she is a wonderful woman and has done nothing to deserve the illness that has savaged the last decade of her life. No matter how much pain she's caused my family over the years, I fucking love my mum and always will...

As for "Jenny", things are going very well with her. I haven't popped the 'girlfriend/boyfriend question' so to speak, but we're seeing each other exclusively and as great as it is to go on an epic shagging spree, few things compare to being with a girl you genuinely want. This has been a long hard road for me but it's awesome to win over a woman you've been chasing for the better part of a year. Here is a song to sum up my feelings on the matter.

[ame=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9QS0q3mGPGg]Songify This - Winning - a Song by Charlie Sheen - YouTube[/ame]