Im so confused man... I feel like.. life is happening around me.. But i walk the same route everyday and that route is like stuck in time... Like the world is progressing without me... Today i found out my boss got cancer... Could be it man.. could pull him out for good.. which.. would push me to take over the business.. at fucking 19... and im so not mentally, or emotionally, or finacially prepared for this... But im officially the only working Employee at my company... and its always been like a dream.. got to smoke weed.. minimal work.. lots of chillin and got to talk with cool people everyday... But i dont even know how the company is doing financially and theyre already confronting me about it O.O Like... Idk if i should just take off and find my own job via my own path.. Or i could stay and try and grow the business... or i could find a new job and ditch the dieing beast.. Cause idk how were gunna keep shit running without my bossman Hes been in the hidden camera business since long before i was born.. he did the rigging for Candid Camera and all that shit lol The original Punk'd... He just knows EVERYTHING... and i know he learnt pretty the same way as i would/will... have/have been... IDK MAN MY FUCKING MIND IS FULL OF SOME MANY FUCKS THAT I CANT EVEN COME CLOSE TO THINKING STRAIGHT BECAUSE IM A GODDAM 19YR OLD STONER FOR CHRIST SAKE... MY LAST 2 paychecks went towards Gas, Glass, and weed lol Im just so confused... and i know theres people in my life who want me to just man up and do it and be the man they all see in me... but at the same time if it does work im LOCKED INTO IT FOREVER lol Itll annihilate all plans i had of going homeless next year for 6 months and wandering america aimlessly... And GAH!
well im looking to move the fuck outta chicago so.... heres the plan.... i move out to where ever u are, convince ur boss that u want extra help while u learn the ropes of managing from him while i can do ur bitch work, once hes gone ill know some about the buisness and ull have a geeky stoner as ur buisness partner who wouldnt care if u left for 6 months outta the year to wander mother earth.......boom, checkmate!